It wouldn't kill if people minded their own stinkin business for once, would it? Fine if I can't keep my secrets well and people manage to sniff them out using their canine nose. That's my bad, I admit. But to use that to bitch and jump to anal conclusions about something else is simply unscrupulous.
I swear I'm only coming home after the cursed wedding. For those who don't believe in karma, let me share a true life account. Everyone knows how those two mother fuckers love to gloat over any misfortune that befall on me. Not only that, they go around telling other people. So guess what? My sister lost her wedding band the second time. She's lucky enough to have it back twice but I'm not quite sure if luck's gonna stay with her. Is that supposed to be a bad omen? Perhaps a divorce? Oh how I would rejoice!!!
I'm trying so bloody hard to keep my cool around them despite knowing how my sister betrayed me time and time again. To think that we used to be so close despite the 8 year age gap. To think that she used to come to my defense when my big sis wanted to cane me during my younger days. To think that she grew up only to turn her back against the sister she shares a room with for 15 years till today. To think that she even allowed a fuckin outsider to make our relationship turn sour. Why?? To save her own ass.
I wouldn't play Miss Nonchalant anymore.
Everyone just assumes the fault lies with me. A family friend said I should understand why my parents are so strict with me.
I quote, "E'an.. you are more problematic as compared to your sisters. They didn't give your parents as much trouble not because they are square headed. And with that, your parents are feeling rather helpless. You know how the feeling of helplessness sucks right? So when they feel like they can't do anything, its only natural for your dad to hold on tighter to the reins."
So is it my fault that I turned out like that? I don't believe I made a drastic overnight change and neither will I accept their bull crap about mixing with the wrong company. As much as I'm easily swayed by my peers, I know where to draw the line. But people don't seem to see things from my point of view.
And it sucks knowing that nothing much can be done as long as I still live off them.