Last day of work might prove to be disastrous in the long run. But I hope this coming week would be well spent since it's gonna be parents-free.
My mum sucks. So does my dad. And my second sis for that matter of fact.
Tricia always tells me I have some grudge against the whole world because I'm seem to be hating almost everyone and everything. I know I'm dysfunctional. But I'm better than some people who dream of monster monkeys. Hahaha.

Oh. Girls, could we postpone Mambo to next next instead?

I'm fairly tempted to walk over to the pantry, grab any knife and start stabbing myself in the lower abdomen. Anyway, it's either I kill myself before the pain does, or the excruciating pain kills me first. I prefer to die in my own hands.
More morbid thoughts swirling in my head.

If only there's the existence of a delete button in my brain, things would be so much simpler. Especially when I'm such an impulsive person...
I wish certain friends could be deleted too.

Been plagued by weird dreams pertaining to my bleak future lately. Can't help but feel a tinge of insecurity despite telling everyone the direct opposite. It's only human nature to do so, isn't it? I doubt anyone can fully fathom what I'm going through unless they're in my shoes. What on-lookers see is just the pretty picture masking the crack in the wall.
If I ever fuck things up again, I swear the parental unit would see to my funeral arrangements. Period.
It really feels damn shitty when you know you can't carry on with something/someone just because space and time forbid. Too early to put an end to it but too late to bring it to another level. I hate the feeling of despair!!

In any case, I'm glad to have made that trip down to Deb's. Have finished one and am left with 2 more Cosmos'. Thank you hon!! I'm praying that someone would come to my rescue and wreck my boring Sunday. Only made plans for breakfast with my favourite not-so-near neighbour and then meet Lj at night.
I need serious thrill. And pronto!

*Frame up the crack and you get my life.

Dad started his weekly rant about how my jeans are always worn so low and my tops are so short.
"What kind of image are you trying to portray to others? What's the meaning of showing your stomach to the entire world huh?? Learn to have some self respect."

O.K.A.Y. So first I'm accused of watching porn, now I'm a slut in the making. My dad's sooo cool. Didn't you guys wish he was your father too?
I ought to revert to the old school fashion of wearing big T-shirts, or should I say authentic Ralph Lauren polo tees cos I'm wayyy cooler than the ah lian piangs on the streets. Erm.. and probably drop by FEP and see if they have any more Fubu jeans left from 2000. How can I pose in town without sport shoes. HOR??
God damnit!
You think that's the end of the story? No.. He had to say,
"If you were a boy, I'm 100% sure that you'll be those that will wear caps the wrong way round, wear your jeans till it looks like it's going to fall off. *I stopped listening from there* "
Right.. that old man is so living in the past. Sheesh!

Pictures are up. Courtesy of biatch.

Fantastic fun!! Met Jess for the first time since erm... eternity and also Lyn whom I haven't been seeing since slightly after prelims. Ack!! To think she's my cousin and lives like a 10 minute drive away from my home?!
So yeah.. same old same old. We did what girls who haven't been seeing each other/ have been seeing each other would do; bitch, laugh, be camera whores and the list goes on. x)
Btw Lyn and Jess, I saw the picture of miss/mr i-wanna-move-away-from-you-cos-the-whole-world-is-staring-at-me. All I can say is that it is absolutely revolting and you girls might wanna consider using it as a form of blackmail in the future. Mighty powerful weapon you know?? Heh.. Date me out again!!
As the sky darkened, the AFs minus bf made our way to Marina Bay for steamboat. Without abalone and golden mushrooms and nice soup of course. The place is uber crappy; with a baby cockroach crawling up biatch's thigh, a bigger one lurking nearby, stupid PRC women with bad services, Tom Yam Soup that doesn't even taste like it should, artificial tasting chicken yada yada. Ironically, despite all the complains, we still ate like there was no tomorrow. $10 buffet, this is what you get.
Oh.. how can we ever forget the psycho mini-bus driver from hell. 6 of us were screaming like lunatics cos the fucker drove at like probably 80 km/hr on a small winding road. But it was pure joy. Got our adrenaline rush, yes girls?
Will wait for biatch to upload the pictures we took and I'll link it.
As for now, it's time to shed off those pounds that was gained from a not so scrumptious dinner before the Brownies embark on our baking session. Whoopeeee!! Can't wait can't wait can't wait.

-The OC
-Joey
-Overdose of Howie Day's, Collide and I'm lovin it!
-I survived half the week without ample sleep.
-Gonna get hooked on the aunty show, First Mums.

I love Thursdays. (hope I don't jinx my Thursdays after saying this)

Finally had my annual dose of Vitamin C and am still pretty hyped after 8 hours or so. x) Erm.. a tad bit red and very soon, the grounds that I walk on would start experiencing snow flakes.
Had a fuckin fun time at Essential Brew talking about almost everything anal with Ulynn and William. HAHAHA.
Now that the fun bit is over, it's time to face the music when I return to work tomorrow.
See, I lied to my boss saying that I have urgent matters to settle today ie: uni applications. So why the hell am I baked and red?! Ah.. I'll leave that till tomorrow. The natural instinct to cook up a cock and bull story would surface when the time comes. For now, lemme parade in front of my mirror and admire my tan.
'Nuff narcissism.
The casino issue is causing some big hoo-ha amongst Singaporeans and I happened to chance upon this fuckin good read (a blog). Lemme share this paragraph with you.
"Secondly, there'll be a $1000 charge or something like that for locals who want entry into the casino. For foreigners, no charge! free! I'm so glad that a decision was made to make us feel like 2nd class citizens on our own soil. I love it."
I thought it was $100?? But never mind. That's not the point. I couldn't have said it better.
Stupid idea to build a casino right here in this tiny island which has been called a peesai by Taiwan. Seriously, what's with that talk about Singapore being too "clean" yada yada and thus we're losing all the money that come from the tourists? So they think by building 2 damn casinos here, our country's revenue would increase by leaps and bounds? Wake up your fuckin idea la, zeng hu!
Try to put this scenerio into a human case. It's like this stereotyped nerd who has no late coming records whatsoever and a pretty set of results since forever. Then after many many years, he realises that, "Hey.. this is boring shit. I can't go far in life with just a high IQ and zero EQ! Now, I need to widen my social circle of friends beyond the president of the robotics club and chess club. I need to find hot chicks, get laid, smoke and maybe do some drugs. I'll be popular that way. Cool ah?!"
.............................

I'll leave you with that.

I ought to sack my financial controller aka swan.

Started off with a harmless purchase that costs $26.90, then I spent $181 within 30 minutes, another $32.90 in the following hour and withdrawing $50 at the end of the day.
And get this. My motive for going out was to get a $125 skirt AND a plain tank top. Fuckit. Not only did I not get my tank top, I ended up buying a whole lot of unnecessary stuff. Was very tempted to buy another top from Topshop but I resisted. But I might just head down within this week to get it. HAHAHA
So Mo and bf, yes. I got that Guess skirt. biatch, I've caught your big spending and buying on impluse disease.
I need to surrender my atm card to someone trustworthy before I end up with a measely $100 in the account.

Every time I try changing earrings, my ear holes bleed like a vagina.

If something you come across pisses you off, why do people keep going back to find out more and harp on it? It's spastic, isn't it?! That wasn't directed at anyone in particular.. unless you're guilty of it.

The thought of going back to school kinda excites me. Somehow.. I think when term starts, I'm gonna regret saying that. But after working for 4 months straight, the thing that entices(?) me to wake up so goddamn early would be school. Not work. Now that the distance between school and home is gonna be almost insignificant, I get to wake up later!! A whole new environment minus familiar faces and fucked up people. Can'twaitcan'twait.
The whole, I-am-feeling-insecure-so-I-need-friends-to-surround-me-in-school, is so annoying. I happen to think that the opportunity of starting life anew rocks. New friends that don't stereotype you based on hear-say, and for once, start making enemies not just because your friend hates him/her and therefore I must too. What a way to start a new term; thinking of making enemies. Hahaha. But seriously, I can't stand people with no mind of their own. Followers never make it far, let alone, big.
Just a random thought.. Got a feeling that Howie Day's, Collide, is gonna end up like Hoobastank's, The Reason. Wouldn't say it's gonna be overrated but will get a tad bit annoying after hearing it 10 times a day. It's a lovely song no doubt. As for now, I'm addicted to it. Heh..

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

The IT department in the office blocks all forms of tag board.

"Access has been prevented as the requested web page or facility is restricted. Reason: The web page requested is filtered under the category - Web Chat;Internet Communication"

Uhmm..... WHAT THE FUCK?!
I didn't know tag boards were classified under Web Chats. Who's the crazy fool who chats via a tag board??!!
Anyway anyway, my dad is really on the verge of going insane. Lemme explain.. he accused me of surfing porn at 3.30am just cos I was still using the computer despite his constant naggings to "go sleep". Oh! And because "the background was black..." so I must be doing something illegal. Seriously, his inferential skills suck big time. The same applies to porn. It's for deprived boys/men who can't have sex due to whatever reasons, to wank to and satisfy themselves.
Yesterday's late night phone conversation in the patio proves to be therapeutic. I'm definitely doing it again. x) Plus, I ought to make full use of the 1 week when my folks are off to Nagoya. I have plans in mind already. Just can't wait to carry them out.
*siao and biatch.. Mambo then?

Your blowjob at Fort Canning.. *smirk*
Guys can be such bastards when it comes to Kiss and Tell.

It's supposed to be a buried secret.. so how I did I manage to find out?? Well, I always do.

Reprimanding your child using the office telephone isn't the wisest thing to do. Somehow, I found the conversation vaguely familiar. Then it occurred to me that my mom used to do that all the time when I was still in primary school. You could say that I was quite the nightmare of most parents then.
That aside.. the weather looks far too tempting today. I'm thinking of Sentosa and Mr Sun. Em just got back from her Bintan trip and claims she's baked. Well, I'm green with envy. Honestly!
Other temptations include learning to drive, staying at the The Fullerton for a coupla nights, watching the gazillion movies I'm sooo missing out on and the list goes on. You can't blame me.. I stare outta the window and I see cars whizzing past like bees on the B.S bridge. And the hotel.. let's just say it's like so near yet so far. I wonder what does bf see when she stares outta her window. It sucks being cooped up in the office listening to how people suck up to people of higher authority. Yes yes.. that's life. But I wanna do something much more than that! I'm only 19 for God's sake..
My only consolation? My boss(yup.. the plump one) is going on leave from the 19th to the 26th. But seriously, no more playing hide and seek with the IE icon. I shall bring some music to entertain myself. Cos for starters, I'm not even supposed to have an internet connection. But due to my incessant rants on how bored I am at work, this nice guy gave me the fool proof instruction to set up the internet. And tada!! I'm bloggin now. Have I mentioned that I detest having a female boss? Everyone knows how bitchy women can get. Incoporate this bitchiness with office politics and a truckload of subtle sarcasm. Oh.. I forgot. Hypocrisy too.
I think I'm learning fast.
Was thinking of going on a short trip either to Melbourne (gosh.. I miss that place more than Sydney), Hong Kong or Bali before I proceed on to uni. Not sure if my dad's keen on forking out cash to pay for my trip again. I mean he already gave me quite a bit for my Sydney trip with Phua in december. Read: approx AUD$1.5k in 5 days. Not including airfare and accomodation.
I'm on some serious guilt trip. Maybe it's time to head down to that ATM machine and withdraw some cash and give to my parents. Dad in particular. He can be such a fuckin pain in the ass and be part of the common topic bf and I bitch about 24/7: crazy fathers. But he's still relatively nice and sane as compared to other dads. I should forgive old people. God knows how their brains function.

If you're a nice girl, act like one.
I hate it when people behave so sweetly towards every single fuckin soul in the world, as if they
don't have enemies. I hate it even more when they try to act all bitchy, using "fuck" wrongly. It should be made a crime to say "fuck" the wrong way. Don't say "fuck" when smiling. That's just wrong. WRONG! It isn't loserfied if you're not cool. Trying too hard to make yourself popular is even worse. You have no idea how we laugh behind your back.

I can't help but notice how (lets be nice here) plump ladies love to wear kitten heels. Its like they wobble like fuck just trying to maintain their balance, not forgetting that the thin straps of the shoe look like they're embedded in their pudgy feet. Yuck!
I try to put myself in their shoes(no pun intended), and this is the only reason I can think of.

-You know how women in the olden days all bind their feet so they can only take small steps and retain poise? These deluded plump ladies of the 21st century try to act like them.
Since feet binding are no longer the norm, they use kitten heels as a replacement. Sure.. they end up taking baby steps. And walking like penguins.
My boss is one such deluded person. I scrutinized her shoe today and they were bent like bows.
Think a 80kg (or more) weight being placed on tiny and slender heels.
I would love to see her in sexy black high stilletos though. x)

That was just a random thought. Moving on..
I would love to comment on how unfair SMU is but I figured I'd better stfu.
I have an affinity with bad luck thats it. While I was printing the reports this morning, the fuckin machine decided to constipate for 15672167 times, which also meant that I re-printed my reports 15672167 times. Oddly enough, it seems to know which were my reports. Like it prints everyone's reports consecutively and everything's fine and dandy. When mine's next in line, it jams. I re-print, it jams. And jams. And jams and jams and jams.
Pffttt...

I quote Phil, "Under my skin, lies the bone, Bonez Tour".
x)
Caught the rocker chic and the concert was just too damn fantastic though we kinda felt cheated cos it was only for an hour.
Ya ya.. if you think it's so childish and immature to be attending Avril's concert at 19, I have a piece of advice for you: Stop trying to put on a imsocool facade to hide your insecurities. Period.
Biatch, Phil and I were pumping our arms in the air, jumping as if LP was on stage, singing her songs so fuckin loudly (angst included). It was a truckload of fun and laughter.
Came to a conclusion. Snobs and chinese parents shouldn't be allowed to attend such concerts. Those who want to remain composure too. They irritate the shit outta people with their constant glares when the 3 of us were standing up and getting into the mood. If you wanna sit down and be like a statue, go attend Pavarotti's concert la..
Other than that, I wanna do this again with the same people!!! And of course people who are not in the calibre that I've just mentioned.
For the record, Avril's singing has improved by leaps and bounds. So has her manners.

And I really can't be bothered to give a flying fuck about it.
Or so I say.
Somehow, things aren't suppose to end up this way. Especially not to me.

It's not a fuckin guy problem. Is that all you warped minds can think of?! Tsk..

Wrath
1.Who did you last get angry with?
I get pissed with people all the time.
2.What is your weapon of choice?
My acid tongue.
3.Would you hit a member of the opposite
sex?
Yup.
4.How about of the same sex?
Have outgrown that phase. I swear.
5.Who was the last person who got really
angry at you?
Steffie??
6.What is your pet peeve?
People who have atrocious dress sense.

Sloth
1.What is one thing you're supposed to do
daily that you haven't done in a long time?
Brush my teeth. Just kidding!!!
2.What is the latest you've ever woken up?
2pm
3.Name a person you've been meaning to
contact, but haven't?
No one in particular.
4.What is the last lame excuse you made?
Oh is it?? I dunno. *force a grin*
5.Have you ever watched an infomercial all
the way through?
Like no?!
6.When was the last time you got in a good
workout?
Erm.. let's see. Perhaps the last time I had mass pe, which was hmm.. close to a year?
7.How many times did you hit the snooze
button on your alarm clock today?
Never.

Gluttony
1.What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of
choice?
Starbucks' mocha frap with whipped cream.
2.Meat eater?
Only white meat.
3.What is the greatest amount of alcohol
you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
Think NYE.
4.Do you have an issue with your weight?
Every girl does. You're never slim enough.
6.Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy
foods?
Spicy.
7.Have you ever looked at a small house pet
or child and thought lunch?
I'm not psycho you know..

Lust
1.How many people have you seen naked
(not counting movies/family)?
I'm not telling.. x)
2.How many people have seen YOU naked
(not counting physicians/family)?
Ditto!
3.Have you ever caught yourself staring at the
chest/crotch of a member of the opposite
gender during a normal conversation?
Hahaha.. Someone actually accused me of doing that just the other day but I beg to differ.
4.Have you "done it"?
WHAT??
5.What is your favourite body part on a person
of your gender of choice?
I have 3. Eyes, butt and lips. In no particular order.
6.Have you ever been propositioned by a
prostitute?
That sounds wicked. And for the record, no.
7.Have you ever had to get tested for an STD
or pregnancy?
Nope nope nope.

Greed
1.How many credit cards do you own?
Zilch.
2.If you had 1 million, what would you do with
it?
Dump like 80% of it into the bank and erm.. spend the rest? Ok, and do the cliche thing. Donate.
3.Would you rather be rich, or famous?
Ka-ching! But if you're a fuckin billionare, you'd be famous too right?!
4.Would you accept a boring job if it meant
you would make megabucks?
I hate boring jobs. But since it pays well, it serves as an incentive. I could make an exception sometimes.
5.Have you ever stolen anything?
Does a cutesy tiny eraser count???
6.How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
Ah fuck. My sound card is lost.

Pride
1.What's one thing you have done that you're
most proud of?
Till date, nothing actually.
2.What one thing have you done that your
parents are most proud of?
I think they think that I'm useless.
3.What thing would you like to accomplish in
your life?
Probably to start being a chao mugger for starters, and pray that my luck would change for the better so that everything would fall in place.
4.Do you get annoyed by coming in second
place?
It depends. If the winner deserves it, 2nd's still good.
5.Have you ever entered a contest of skill,
knowing you were of much higher skill than all
the other competitors?
I hate competitions.
6.Have you ever cheated on something to get
a higher score?
Like duh?! Do you see a halo on my head?
7.What did you do today that you're proud of?
Fruitful bitching session.

Envy
1.What item (or person) of your friends' would
you most want to have for your own?
I don't like to yearn for what I can't have. Except maybe for luck? Yeah.. I believe in that.
2.Who would you want to go on "Trading
Spaces" with?
Is this a game show?
3.If you could be anyone else in the world,
who would you be?
Just for a day, Stacie Ferguson. I wanna know how it feels like to have such a hot body!
4.Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes.
5.Have you ever wished you had a physical
feature different from your own?
Of course. One is never satisfied with his/her own appearance.
6.What inborn trait do you see in others that
you wish you had for yourself?
Optimism I guess..
Finally,what is your favourite deadly sin?
Pride wins hands down.