People never run outta excuses to give. You can use the same one over and over again or you can choose to squeeze the brain juice to think of others. In any case, friends will get sick of asking you out and you'll be left alone. Perhaps you like things being that way.
That was a note to myself anyway. If any of you feel that you're behaving just like that, that's for you too.
Nothing's been going right ever since the exams ended. Ok, nothing drastic or terrible happened but I've realised that things are becoming very much meaningless. Some have school, some prefer spending 23hrs with their bfs(tsk tsk), some have idiotic bfs who are irritating, some just simply refuse to unglue their ass from the couch yada yada...
Which brings me to a totally irrelevant point. What's with "friends forever"? Transport yourself back to your primary school days, girls (guys?). I'm pretty sure you're guilty of writing "friends forever" or "keep in touch" in your friends' autograph books. Look at the situation now. Have you actually kept your word? Maybe one or two out of the 20+. Then you go on to secondary school. The simple minded who haven't quite matured will continue with that catch phrase. Then there are those who'll refuse to drop a note in the book( I always thought they were fuckin rude and arrogant though I didn't own an autograph book). Of course you can't exclude the people whom I call, writing-for-the-sake-of-writing. So what's my point after all that ranting? Cliche's the word. Things never last forever. You're stupid if you actually believe that they do.
Guilt would be an exception. It haunts you every now and then when something reminds you of that heinous crime you've committed.
You're gonna lose all the lovely things you own now. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in the next few months or years. The more that you receive, the more things would be taken away from you. If you haven't realised, people make friends to make use of. You make friends to pass time, to hang out with during breaks, to make yourself seem cool cos you're with a big bunch of noisy people.. basically all to your own advantage. And when they are of no more use, you ignore them, you avoid them cos it's just way too uncool to be seen talking to you, you and you. Then again, there's always the need to small talk now and then. So people, reach for that mask with the plastic smile and try to resist cringing ok?
I'm cynical, paranoid and morbid. Period.