Is this how post exam life's supposed to feel like? Cos honestly speaking, I don't like it one bit. I'm like a lost soul. After all that not so mad partying since the 22nd, I'm starting to ask myself constantly, "so what's next?" or "what's tmr's plan?".
Perhaps I'm too used to things being planned out nicely for me. And when I can say that I don't have to attend school for the next 6 months, it feels like there's a void in my life.
It doesn't make me feel better when the folks are being unreasonable control freaks. Just yesterday, my dad made a big fuss about putting pictures online(all that potential danger of you-know-what). All thanks to my fuckin big mouth, nothing-better-to-do sister. Come on! The things that I'm doing are not totally new or out of this world. Besides, it's becoming a norm so what's the big deal? I left him speechless with this sentence, "what's the point of asking me over and over again when you don't even have the least bit of trust in me?
". I could sense his anger though I didn't look at him. Could tell he really wanted to slap me there and then. But he just went into his room and slammed the door. Yup. I know I'm rude, disrespectful and very much rebellious. At least I know my flaws and I'm not afraid to admit them, unlike some people, who have to constantly boost their self confidence by putting people down. Tsk tsk.
Was talking to a friend yesterday regarding his less than perfect love life. I think my guy tendencies are returning. I read his mind. Turns out that he wants to find a girl before enlisting cos it's uncool and loserfied if he doesn't. To quote him, "Having a gf when you're in the army gives you the strength to endure all the sufferings." Errr.. Right. He claims that every guy would think that way. Well, I think whoever thinks that way, is the biggest loser of all. That, is another example of insecurity at its peak. Don't mean to be hypocritical although he's still a friend afterall, but I can't help but notice those two have something in common;(apart from the obvious) they bitch and gossip wayyyyy too much for a guy.
And with that, I'll close my post for today.

*Gimme my sugar rush