//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
i dnt want sex laaa..
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
not feeling sexy today
e*an -queen bees and wannabes- says:
i'm quoting you
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
damnnn
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
u are sickening with a capital S!
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
lol
e*an -queen bees and wannabes- says:
i'm zexy with a capital Z
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
LOL.
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
not funny!!!!!
e*an -queen bees and wannabes- says:
i think it IS
e*an -queen bees and wannabes- says:
DAMN FUNNY
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
HAHA OK!
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
FUNNY!!!
//please help the tidal wave victims// says:
MUAHAHHAHAA
e*an -queen bees and wannabes- says:
i'm quoting that too

Hahaha.. my *siao. iLu hon!

I swear those idiots at the indonesian embassy are a bunch of lazy asswipes. Like HELLO?! The malays(not being racist here)refused to open the damn gates for the long queue of cars outside the embassy when it was raining damn heavily.
My sis got outta the car to ask the man to open the gates or to at least come out and help bring the donations in.. but no.. NO ONE bothered. Until a few minutes later, this malay man told her to seek help from the bangla and guess what? THE FUCKIN BANGLA ASSWIPE DIDN'T WANNA GET WET SO HE TOLD MY SIS TO LEAVE THE THINGS OUTSIDE THE EMBASSY AND THEY'LL COLLECT IT LATER. I think the guy of higher authority fucked him up so he reluctantly came out with some other people and he was the only one carrying a brolly.. pfft.
So much for efficiency. You know somehow I feel that the nature/characteristics of the Malays in general, form part of the reasons why their country is still so poor and undeveloped. If you know what I mean.
Apart from that, it feels good to know that I've helped someone. Might be going down again tmr to help them pack the stuffs so the people over there would receive them more quickly.
On a more freakish note, the stalker is back!! I think my darlings would know who I'm refering to. Anyway, he messaged me on friendster with just 1 word consisting of 4 letters that's enough to make the hair on your arm stand. And no. It's not "fuck". Betcha didn't think of "hEyZ-)"
I think I just made you, you and you cringe. And for the lowdown, my friend who was from his company in the army told me that he was caught wanking. (fyi, it's an offence to masturbate in camp and you can be charged for it) Hahahahahaha. What a loser... But still, the sight of him still freaks me out. Even if its just a photo.

Now for randoms. Haven't done it for quite some time.
.My niece groped me right there
.My mom said I'm damn useless. I think so too
.The office people better call me soon
.I think something bad would happen on a large scale tmr
.Phua, quick upload the photos!
.Biatch loves me no more x(
.Babies, pls keep an empty tummy for tmr nite
.I miss nat-the-rat.. I'll see you on the 13th of jan, 1015 am at the driving centre!!

I believe when your time is up, there's no escaping death. Just look at what happened. Look at how many lives were lost in 20 mins or so by the tsunami.. This is the effect of messing around with Mother Nature. Think about it. No matter how advanced science and technology are, we are still helpless when natural disasters strike. Sure, we are able to tell when a volcano is about to erupt and perhaps evacuate in time. But tell me, how can one escape from an earthquake? Or from a tsunami in this case?
This is definitely karma. The people who died are lucky in a way cos that's the end. But those living in the same area would have to brace themselves for the epidemic that would arise, sooner or later. Those suffer. Hafta payback for whatever they've done.
Singaporeans should count their lucky stars and stop being complacent. At the rate we're wasting food and polluting the air, don't be surprised if we end up being children in Africa, suffering from malnutrition in our next lives. That's if you believe in reincarnation. Sars was just a tiny tiny warning.
I know I'm one helluva morbid being but I don't think I'm wrong in anyway. Everything happens for a reason. And every reason points to the same thing; Karma.

Am being the Grinch this year and most probably, forever.

Seems to me like the term "artistic shot" has been very much mis-used. To me, those "artistic shots" are nothing more than junk photos. A kid could have easily taken those kinda "artistic shots". So please, think before you caption the picture as an "artistic shot". Doesn't do the professional photographers any justice. And yeah.. I can bet 99% of those who mis-use "artistic shot", pronounce "photographer" as "photo-grapher".
And since I'm already on a bitch fit, just lemme add on something else. I think its a damn waste of money to tattoo something so small AND ugly. Cos those people are just the wannabes. Probably have the mindset: I wanna have a tattoo cos I think its cool. But I want it tiny cos... fill in the blanks. I dunno how those people think anyway. Don't get me wrong. I've nothing against people who have tattoos but to pay so much to do something so small (probably the size of a 20cent coin) and so blah?! WTH. I think even the ugly ah beng dragon would look prettier. Urgh!!!

Some people find great joy in being totally unoriginal, living their lives by copying the style of others.
Some people find great joy in trying to find their own style, but failing miserably.
Some people find great joy in stuffing ugly looking and smelly cunts (literally ccb) into their mouths.
Some people find great joy in being cheated in terms of feelings, wealth and trust, and choose to believe that it's just a bad dream.
Some people find great joy in being a hypocrite, and yet end up doing the same thing within a week.
Some people find great joy in trying to end every conversation (thinks: I must outtalk her so I won't seem stupid) when opinions differ. How insecure..
Yeah.. I can be a skank but you're worse cos you don't even know who you really are, what you really want to do with your life and sadly, you don't have a mind of your own.

People never run outta excuses to give. You can use the same one over and over again or you can choose to squeeze the brain juice to think of others. In any case, friends will get sick of asking you out and you'll be left alone. Perhaps you like things being that way.
That was a note to myself anyway. If any of you feel that you're behaving just like that, that's for you too.
Nothing's been going right ever since the exams ended. Ok, nothing drastic or terrible happened but I've realised that things are becoming very much meaningless. Some have school, some prefer spending 23hrs with their bfs(tsk tsk), some have idiotic bfs who are irritating, some just simply refuse to unglue their ass from the couch yada yada...
Which brings me to a totally irrelevant point. What's with "friends forever"? Transport yourself back to your primary school days, girls (guys?). I'm pretty sure you're guilty of writing "friends forever" or "keep in touch" in your friends' autograph books. Look at the situation now. Have you actually kept your word? Maybe one or two out of the 20+. Then you go on to secondary school. The simple minded who haven't quite matured will continue with that catch phrase. Then there are those who'll refuse to drop a note in the book( I always thought they were fuckin rude and arrogant though I didn't own an autograph book). Of course you can't exclude the people whom I call, writing-for-the-sake-of-writing. So what's my point after all that ranting? Cliche's the word. Things never last forever. You're stupid if you actually believe that they do.
Guilt would be an exception. It haunts you every now and then when something reminds you of that heinous crime you've committed.
You're gonna lose all the lovely things you own now. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in the next few months or years. The more that you receive, the more things would be taken away from you. If you haven't realised, people make friends to make use of. You make friends to pass time, to hang out with during breaks, to make yourself seem cool cos you're with a big bunch of noisy people.. basically all to your own advantage. And when they are of no more use, you ignore them, you avoid them cos it's just way too uncool to be seen talking to you, you and you. Then again, there's always the need to small talk now and then. So people, reach for that mask with the plastic smile and try to resist cringing ok?
I'm cynical, paranoid and morbid. Period.

G'day mate!! Sorry for the cheesy greeting.. Haven't exactly tuned myself back into the Singaporean mode. Dead boring anyway.
Well, to spare myself from repeating the same thing to so many people, I'll summarize what happened in Sydney.
Make a guess:
.Exciting morning shags vs the beeping of the hp alarm
.Climbing of the Habour Bridge vs taking photos of it from the ferry
.Visiting clubs vs hibernating in the hotel room playing Cluedo and Uno
.Patronising posh seafood restaurants at Cockles Bay vs indulging in cheap instant cup noodles every night(room service too)
.Having a personal butler vs the weird room service guy who speaks funny
Quite obvious eh? Heh.. Anyway, being tourists, Angela and I went to the scenic places. It was a great achievement for me cos I was NEVER interested in looking at waterfalls and mountains whatsoever. But then again, it's all for experience.
Yup. Aussies are lazy fucks. I still can't believe they only have late nite shopping on thursdays. Now that just sucks ok.
Erm.. trying to think of interesting things that happened along the way. Ok.. I busted $1200 on lots of shopping/food/gifts. Just kill me. I won't have the chance to spend that much ever again. So there you have it, another experience. Phil, I did not buy cheapo bras ok. They were wayyyyyyyy too large. Maybe they'll fit your ass.
The weather was awesome but somehow, I managed to develop fuckin heat rash on my back and it affected my sleep damn alot. Oh yah.. I went on a go-green shopping trip. Biatch semi fainted and bf wanted to box the living daylights out of me. Hahaha.
OHHHH.. we were bored fucks and there were no nice shows on tv so we decided to pay and watch what the hotel calls "erotic adult movie". It was just as bad as the Paris Hilton sex clip please. I think it was more hilarious than erotic. So there I was, laughing away whilst Angela was stunned. It was seriously very very bad porn. Doesn't do justice to porn shows, not that they are respectable or anything. You get the gist right?!
The flight back was dreadful. Human traffic congestion at the customs and we were the last few ppl who haven't boarded. I was wheezing and panting and on the verge of fainting when I reached the departure gates. No joke running with a heavy bag and plastic bags in tow. Did I mention I was trying to catch up with the stupid girl who was running so damn fast?! Erm.. The Cinderella Story(again), Bride and Prejudice(damn predictable), and Friends helped me pass time. I can't stand taking planes.
Anyway, I miss my AFs damn alot. I didn't know my bf loves me so much, I didn't know Biatch misses me that much too. But to the rest, I'm back!!!! Escape ok? And *siao, as promised, I got you your bday present. Don't complain and kp so much k..
This is trashy. I think I'm suffering from mental retardation now. Afterall, Sydney is damn slow although it's a cosmopolitan country. Whatever. The OC there is still at the beginning of first season, showing Marissa and Ryan getting together. WTF. Bye!
Photos are still with the bestie so you just have to wait.

*I'll just stay here and watch you leave

Somehow, pre-dinner was absolutely fantastic. Almost got lost in the dark but all thanks to the return of my guy tendencies(i've been mentioning this word an awful lot, haven't i?), I managed to find my way outta Botanical Gardens. x) So much for girls not being able to read maps, and taking into account I got a c5 for combined geog. Hahaha.
I was pretty entertained with the loser's mini pseudo ktv session, accompanied with actions. That guy can seriously make me cringe on the outside but feel totally at ease on the inside. Yeah. Plus the Caesar Salad rocked balls.

RE-EDITED:
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, STEFFIE!!!!!
Finally all of us are legal!! Even though I've to settle with the nick used by bf, I still love you *siao.. That's for sure. Manymanymoreyearsof*siaonesstocomeaye?!

All of us trotted to *siao's place. Which was really out of the way.
I'm not exaggerating this time. From my place all the way to sengkang.
Met Biatch first and got lost in a shopping mall with an unknown name. I asked a lady which mall was it and she stared at me like I was some mildy retarded girl who graduated from a special school. Hello?? I don't live in Sengkang, whatmore knowing the existence of Compass Point. Now I know.
Wth.. anyway, 6 stupid girls were trying to be discreet with the surprise but it obviously backfired badly.
1. No one brought a lighter nor matches. Had to borrow from her neighbour who thought we were insane.
2. Heard steffie's door opening and we all ran up the staircase to hide.
3. Guy tendencies; I was too rough with the candle when trying to stick it into the holder. It broke. Poor steffie had one barely upright yellow candle.
4. When the coast was clear, we tried to be discreet again but clumsy clara tripped over her own foot and made a din.
5. The spoiler: Steffie saw shadows darting here and there from the gap under her door. Thought people were trying to steal her plants so she came out and saw us desperately trying to re-light the candles.
Anyhow, we enjoyed ourselves and her dad was so corny with the "say cheese!!". I love steffie's room. x) What amazed me was that her maid knew how to say "wah lau!" with such perfection. Not bad eh *siao..
Somehow, I got this bad feeling that my F4 will throw me to the otherside. I had to ask crystle to laugh at my joke.

-name-
E'an

-nicknames-
an, mo, biatch, siao, and some which i prefer to keep it to myself x)

-zodiac-
scorpio

-how's life right now-
dead boring

-how happy are you now. honestly. on a scale of 1
to 10-
6

-is there anything you would like to do right now-
leave on a jet plane

-which school day do you hate the most?-
the days when there are double gp lessons

-do you sing in class?-
of course x)

-do you prefer girls/guys with long or short hair?-
guys with short hair. but cannot be botak.

-what's your desktop wallpaper right now?
some wallpaper from Roxy

-what are you not looking forward to-
getting back the results

-are you spoilt and pampered-
i don't think so..

-what is your chinese astrology sign-
tiger

-what is your most hated colour-
i can't think of any

-how do you feel if any of your friends have a crush-
if it's any of my AFs, i'd be ecstatic. expt fi cos her taste is... *laughs* -think the TALLIE-

-what are you wearing now-
t-shirt and shorts

-what accessories are you wearing right now-
nothing

-last person to call you-
jing how

-last person to sms you-
clara

-last person you sent an sms to-
clara

-last person in your missed calls list-
jing how

-how is the weather right now-
it's cold

-what song are you listening to-
nothing

-what song is stuck in your head-
"I saw mommy kissing santa claus...."

-favourite food-
pasta

-favourite drinks-
iced lemon tea

-last movie watched-
shutter

-last tv show watched-
As Told by Ginger-Nickelodeon

-last time you smiled-
right now

-last room you were in-
study room. still here

-last person you are thinking of-
*siao

-last hug that you got from-
pretty sure it was one of my darlings.

-last person you said sorry to-
chow yang. i stepped on his foot.

-last person who gave you a gift-
my big sis

-last words-
*siao's letting me put my on face on top of her xmas tree. iLu girly!!

Is this how post exam life's supposed to feel like? Cos honestly speaking, I don't like it one bit. I'm like a lost soul. After all that not so mad partying since the 22nd, I'm starting to ask myself constantly, "so what's next?" or "what's tmr's plan?".
Perhaps I'm too used to things being planned out nicely for me. And when I can say that I don't have to attend school for the next 6 months, it feels like there's a void in my life.
It doesn't make me feel better when the folks are being unreasonable control freaks. Just yesterday, my dad made a big fuss about putting pictures online(all that potential danger of you-know-what). All thanks to my fuckin big mouth, nothing-better-to-do sister. Come on! The things that I'm doing are not totally new or out of this world. Besides, it's becoming a norm so what's the big deal? I left him speechless with this sentence, "what's the point of asking me over and over again when you don't even have the least bit of trust in me?
". I could sense his anger though I didn't look at him. Could tell he really wanted to slap me there and then. But he just went into his room and slammed the door. Yup. I know I'm rude, disrespectful and very much rebellious. At least I know my flaws and I'm not afraid to admit them, unlike some people, who have to constantly boost their self confidence by putting people down. Tsk tsk.
Was talking to a friend yesterday regarding his less than perfect love life. I think my guy tendencies are returning. I read his mind. Turns out that he wants to find a girl before enlisting cos it's uncool and loserfied if he doesn't. To quote him, "Having a gf when you're in the army gives you the strength to endure all the sufferings." Errr.. Right. He claims that every guy would think that way. Well, I think whoever thinks that way, is the biggest loser of all. That, is another example of insecurity at its peak. Don't mean to be hypocritical although he's still a friend afterall, but I can't help but notice those two have something in common;(apart from the obvious) they bitch and gossip wayyyyy too much for a guy.
And with that, I'll close my post for today.

*Gimme my sugar rush

I found the picture of the gothic queen!!! Hahahha... *siao, don't you just love me?
Click here
2nd row, 2nd pic.. A classic example of a fashion disaster. Hahaha

My poor darlings, get well soon ok? There's monday to look forward to you know?! Of course you know. Damn.. it's gonna be the event of the week!!
Seems like the i-cannot-do-without-the-ego-stroking is getting on everyone's nerves eh? Gosh.. Singapore is small. Face it. Everyone is somehow related to each other. So my point being, it's such a disgrace to yourself if the majority hates you. All the "campaigning" that you've done, in hope of gaining more fame, glory and status have gone wrong. Instead of being noticed for the right reasons, you're turning into a condemned case. Yup! Perhaps you and your few friends are the only people oblivious to how irksome people feel when your name's mentioned. Afterall, birds of a feather flock together.
Anyway anyway, I have my msn back!! Can you sense my excitement?! After being deprived of msn for a thousand months, I finally got that shitass to remove the firewall. Now, I spend my boring nights talking to my distant neighbour. Hahaha. How interesting!!!
Then again, it's always good to have alot of time with yourself. Unless you're on the "appear offline" mode, things can get pretty irritating with people bombarding you with "hi!!!". Especially so if they just wanna talk for the sake of talking. Do away with the formalities and get on with what you have to say. If it contains substance that is. Hahaha. Right. I think I'm just biased. I only like talking to people I like talking to. Meaning, people of the same wavelength; as irritating, crazy and FOS. x)
No names mentioned but if you think you fall under i-don't-wanna-talk-to-you category, then you most probably are. Hahaha. I'm beginning to sound like *siao, vice versa. Btw, iLu girly!! How's the burnt coming along?
Was rumaging through my clothes and I found my uber long skirt from cj. Brings back fond memories of wearing the lousier than Bata long socks and wearing that fuckin long skirt to see that Hung wannabe. Wonder what he does with the 3 short skirts that he confiscated from me(Trina's actually..), along with the many others from equally suay girls. Let your imagination run wild.. Quite freaky eh?!
Okay.. this post is becoming nonsensical and I'll make a move.

Photos are up. Go see go see.
Minimal sleep and the gradual loss of appetite. Yesterday was crazy. Woke up so bloody early and only slept at 6am and woke up at 11am. The newspaper was delivered at the doorstep and we were still wide awake. Tried to get some sleep but 5 people squeezing into 2 tiny beds was no fun at all. (ps: thank you clara and daryl.) Biatch on my right had a block nose and was making funny noises. Siao on my left had her stupid iPod stuffed in her ears, I thought I heard some Kenny G music.
Bf was off somewhere. Again. Making use of my damn good hp plan. I saw her creeping back into the room and closing the curtains. x)

Anyway, to sum up yesterday,
*We were very very late for prom.
*Paid $70 to take photos. I really hated the food.
*Everyone was pretty although there were a few walking fashion disasters.
*We didn't get to vote for prom king and queen. wtf?!
*But they were alright.
*Siao made everyone vote for Sylvester. *cringe*
*Zouk was horrible.
*Cheekys was equally bad.
*Biatch was savouring the nice smelling armpits of some Indian-mama.
*The crowd was gross initially till the cj guys appeared from the other side.
*Crazy idiots standing by the roadside waiting for sugardaddy to arrive. .
*Car ride was insane. But I like!
*Supper at Newton.
*Serious eye opener. Fat drunked girl exposed her bloomers.
*Told all the guys to check it out. We were damn scared that her friends were gonna pick a fight.
*We had a backup plan of course; take our drinks, scream and run to sugardaddy's car.
*Crowning of the official F4 and the Morbid 6.
*Car ride back was even more fun. Siao almost flew out of the car.
*We are very noisy people.
*Spice Girls music.
*Siao clogged up the toilet sink cos she was shaving her legs. Fucker.
*2614: The Sex Room.
*1301: The Blah Room.
*It was fun with the girls, Phil, Zyzy and Sugardaddy.
*I love my AFs damn alot!!! x)

Mo, I hope your medication worked. You had better be in the pink of health and more importantly, I sure hope you slept well. Hahahhaha. iMu my Egyptian Princess
Onto something else, I think I might have been wrong. But there's nothing much I can do about it anyway. If given another shot at it, I'd gladly agree. But that's just if. Will never happen.
Yesterday was just fantastic. Nothing spoilt my night. Nothing at all, except Zouk and the stinky disgusting initial people at Cheekys. In fact, I got high on nothing. Heh.

*Stop right now, thank you very much
I need somebody with the human touch
Hey you, always on the run
Gotta slow it down, baby, gotta have some fun