My sleep was disrupted by a fuckin sms at 530am. Yesterday, the same thing happened but it was worse cos the sms was meaningless. Today's one was... well, lemme say I was cursing the shitass person for giving me a heart attack when my phone went "beep!" so damn loudly. BUT, the content was really worth the sacrifice to forgo my sleep. Hohoho. My cheap thrill early in the morning.
I was just thinking, why are we able to change the values that we've held so strongly to, in just a matter of months? It makes me wonder if we are all really that weak inside. I've seen people change and I have to admit that I almost crossed the line too. You are supposed to feel guilty right? But you don't. It's as if that's part and parcel of life. If you don't follow the crowd, you're a loser.
I don't like to be associated to being "just like the rest" or stereotyped. That's just nonsense. I don't want to be told what to do and when to do it. Basically, I think peer pressure should never have existed. Not that I succumb to it ever so often.
I'm sure Swan must have been hurt by my sudden change. She doesn't say it but I know that feeling lingers somewhere in her. But like I've said, I don't regret whatever I've done. Not a single bit.
I guess change is inevitable. You just gotta accept people for who they are. And if you can't, that's when the friendship ends.

*I love you, I hate you