I am not a malingerer. My internal system has gone haywire. I just wanna curl up and bleed to death.
You must think that I am insane to sleep with the air-con on when I'm having a flu, sore throat and a mild case of cough. But the construction sites behind and infront of my house are breeding mosquitoes!!! The only way to have a proper sleep is to switch on the air-con. Fuck. I slept with a jacket plus my blanket pulled right up to my neck. Felt like I was in North Pole or something.
The 3 party conversation brought back many fond memories, although I wasn't participating much. Felt like I could so goddamn relate to it, but that was the past. Anyway..
I realised that more often that not, we make up our own fairytales. We choose to ignore what we don't like and then go on to delude ourselves into thinking that there is a possibility for that something to happen. But one fine day, that beautiful sandcastle that we painstakingly built would be crushed by the waves i.e, reality.
Seen so many of such cases that I'm beginning to get quite sick of hearing people lamenting about this and that. Don't get me wrong. I'm still willing to hear you out but sometimes, a change of topic would do both of us good. I'll be honest. Making it an everyday affair kinda irks me. The staleness kills. Soon, it'll be a monotonous monologue.
Well, it's always good to know that my darlings have good company when the going gets tough. x) Those late night conversations that revolve around the topic of whispering sweet nothings are always therapeutic. Hahahahaha. Okay. Enough teasing already.
Oh yah. Was having a discussion with a friend about someone being fake. I call her The Cheater. Maybe I was oblivious to her behaviour in the past, or maybe because she seemed so sweet and nice, or maybe... I just didn't know her well enough. But it seems like signs of fakeness are surfacing now. Like BIG TIME. The look that she threw me when I greeted her was like "whoaaaa". Imagine this. She said "hi" through gritted teeth and she was giving me that "don't-hi-me-cos-I-know-what-happened" stare. And of course, it wouldn't be complete without that big fake smile right? Right.
Bye people. I'm gonna call Swan now to seek help on those ever so demoralising chemistry questions.

*Deaf