It's amazing to see how much people can mature over the span of one year. Writing, thinking and analytical skills. But I admit. What I saw kinda made me sad. Not unhappy sad but more of the nostalgic sad. The innocence back then was genuine. The straight-foward and more often than not acid-tongue kinda talk now, is also genuine. What happened??
I'm quite scared now actually. Can't really tell what is it exactly cos it's more like a general thing. Just make an assumption on smth that you might think that I'm afraid of and you're most probably right.
Plus I don't feel good around people these few days. I don't even joke with swan anymore. Everytime I speak to her, (be it face to face or via sms) it's always on serious stuff like how to solve that mind boggling question that chua bee bah is discussing. In the morning, I just stare blankly at the open space in front, oblivious to anyone or anything. Don't talk or joke with my gfs anymore cos I'm always in a bad mood when I go for assembly. Lack of sleep maybe. I'm feeling tired constantly. I walk around like a living dead. I hate to deal with this again. Again, cos it happened before.
Walking home poses a potential danger of being knocked down by a oncoming vehicle. I cross the road whilst in a daze. Of course I'm not being all suicidal here. It's just that my mind has lost it's ability to focus. My fingers are always longing to switch on that nasty button on the CPU and the monitor. As a result, my studying has to be procrastinated yet again. Why am I behaving like this? Lets just say my old foe is back to visit and I'm succumbing to its nonsense.
It's good to let go of things and get back your cheery ol' self. Too many obligations and responsibilities will cause a mental breakdown one day. I'm just waiting to see when will it be my turn.

*I still can remember everything.