Right. Everything's a mess. I've been staring hard at my econs notes for the whole day and I've only progressed as far as 12 pages. Way way behind my timetable.
It's impossible to confide in anyone. So now dearie knows. And bf. I'm freakin out majorly. I made dearie rip it for
my own use. Seems like I have to wait another 15 more days. So much for wanting to rush over to Cluny Park asap.
Sometimes, I think about what might happen and it gets me all upset. And then, there are times when I can actually laugh out loud to myself.
I don't wanna think about it. If it's true, there's only one option for me. And I don't wanna hafta deal with the aftermath.
Fuck!!!!!!
I don't want to have to undergo this whole ordeal even though I'm sure bf and dearie will be with me 24/7. It's just so wrong. Fuckin unprepared and it really caught me off-guard.
