I've thought about it long and hard. And the conclusion? I lack the intellectual ability to hold a decent and intriguing conversation. (ie, no bimbotic small talk, bitching and going, "HUH?!" ever so often) I've grown to accept the fact that if I don't start to read widely and still continue with my old ways of not reading enough current affairs and all that kinda shit, my mentality wouldn't budge from the Sweet Valley era. Frustrating as it may be, but I know men wouldn't want their wives to talk about shopping bargains, baby stuffs and the typical brainless stuffs 24/7. Though I may be guilty of that next time. I'm so sure. And then my husband(if I ever do get married. I shall remember veron's wise words) will talk about nothing but soccer, betting and sales. Scary thought. But it's gonna come true. Worse still, I'll end up getting together with science nerds.
It sounds like I'm shooting myself in the foot but seriously, I hardly get any kick outta talking to science guys. Yeah, besides the so called "connection" that we have, all else ends right there. Think about it, the guys that we bitch with best, and those we bitch about right in their faces and they don't get worked up and defensive are those from the arts faculty. Do the same with some guy from science and you get a string of vulgarities hurled right back at you. I have someone in mind now. I'm not stereotyping all science guys.. there are a few exceptions but they're really on the brink of extinction. Talked about it with bf and we arrived at the same conclusion. If possible, find someone from the arts. For starters, they are less nerdy, more enthusiastic, better with words and hence, better at expressing themselves, more romantic perhaps. That's still a question mark but it's a good assumption. Hopefully I'm right. Oh.. and NO COMPUTER GAMES!!!! Yeah!! They don't go crazy over some fuckin war craft shit. I think. That's a major turn off. Especially you're on the phone with them and suddenly it's all dead silent at the other end. All you hear is the shooting of pseudo guns and the guy goes "err.. ya?" when you say "have you been listening to what I just said?"
God.. I'm starting my nonsense again. See what I mean about not being able to discuss something with more subtance?! Like politics perhaps? Maybe I could give my opinion on the article on the court case between the ex PM and SM and that guy from the opposition party, and maybe my gp will improve slightly. But of course, that's impossible. I lack enough knowledge about what's going on and what I say would be sweeping statements. How typical of a brainless, bimbotic and unloved me.
I have no idea why I started rambling on and on about the need to increase my knowledge. Oh... now I know why.. because it's the key to everything. That's it! And that's also the reason to why things happen!! Must be it.
I could really channel my time to better use.. like really studying. It's sad, but I couldn't concentrate at all today. Including tuition, my cramps and the pain from elsewhere were killing me. I'm still deciding who should win. So yeah. I lied about being able to concentrate. I lied to you and you. I.am.a.bad.liar.
It's still early. I could probably get some chemistry and integration done. Though I'm already fucked for prelims.

*Numb and confused