I think I'm blogging excessively. Bad E'an.
Anyhow, I was reading through some of my old posts(and some not very old posts). Came to one conclusion. I habour thoughts and opinions that 18 year olds shouldn't be having already. Yikes.. Its like, my short term goal now is to think before I blog. So that when I read about what I've written in the past, I wouldn't go "omg.. did I really say that?" If I am a very very impulsive person, I think I'd have deleted the whole archives thing. It's just so embarrassing. But it's just so me to say the most frivolous stuff most of the time. So wouldn't the whole think-before-I-blog thing make me fake? I've had enough of having contact with hypocrites daily. No doubt everyone has this little devil in them. Be honest! Who hasn't been a hypocrite in their entire life so far? I say you're lying.
Then there's the whole issue about the xia suay act. Might seem fuckin hilarious at that point of time, inviting unwanted attention from the public. But it isn't all that funny after all. I'm a major embarrassment; anywhere doing anything. I need a whole new change of identity. Being well known for the wrong reason is tragic. Not that I'm saying I'm famous but I guess hanging out with a big clique in school does bring about attention from others. Especially when everyone's seeing Red. There's the grinding act in the canteen with clara. Or was it bf? Heh. And the pe dept was giving us the weird look. When it comes to hanging out with steffie one on one, it's worse. The spastic laughing syndrome just acts up. I think I'm at the peak of calmness when I'm with my swan. Relatively so cos math lectures don't count.

*I've been to paradise but I've never been to me