I take my hat off to those people who are able the channel their energy to better use i.e mugging for the prelims/A levels. Cos I am not able to do so. Honestly, I have everything; from the conducive environment at home(besides the road works just outside), to (at last!) being free of fucked up relationship problems. But that crucial element! Yes. Motivation, is nowhere to be found.
Perhaps the fucked up bit of relationship problems, that never fail to occur during major events(In sec 2,4,jc1) has actually given me some form of motivation to study to vent my frustrations. So when everything is sweet, rosy and almost perfect like now, I can't fuckin study!
Everyday is just another wasted day. Wastedwastedwasted. I tell myself I'll get x amount of things done, but nooo.. God.. How am I gonna save my own skin when I'm not even anywhere close to being done with chem revision when the fuckin mock is tmr?!
That's it. A promise to myself shall now be kept. I'm starting now.