Has anyone realised that teachers' day is nothing but a facade? It's a day when students are obliged(of course not all but the bootlickers wld)to go up to some fuckface that probably fucked up their lives and say " 'insert name here', happy teachers' day!! " and then hand him/her a card or something. I for one, do not practice such shit. Until this year. It really isn't my fault you know.. Due to immense pressure from the HTC, and I really do not want to get into another row with my classmates, I unwillingly squeezed my brain juice, dry, last night, trying to think of something to write for my teachers. It was a tough job cos I didn't wanna say something that isn't true like "you're the BEST teacher in the whole world" when he/she obviously isn't. So it was more of general comments and in some cases, subtle sarcasm. I doubt they'd get it anyway. Arseholes.
On a lighter note, I'm really glad I didn't decide to give today a miss. My last teachers' day celebration really rocked the house. x) Those ICS people were like whoaaaaaaaaaa! I've never seen dance moves as good as theirs. Totally natural and omfg exciting. Bf, mo and I were screaming our lungs out. But they were really really really good-Unexpected but without a doubt. 2t7's skit was also good entertainment!! Good shit for the whole day. Too bad our alltimefavourite Joyce didn't perform. Ah.. okok.. karma I know..
After the concert ended, everything was still good except that maybe a certain character
really tries too hard. So much so that it makes us go *gag*.
-note to self: I gotta stop bitching so much-
Did I mention that I loveeeeee mooncakes? In fact, I'm gonna sink my teeth into one now.

I love Eiffel Tower
*Nothing's gonna rot my mood today. I'm on an ecstacyhigh. x)

To cut my long, mundane and (more often that not) superficial post short,
1. I hate to be caught in the middle. Again.
2. The girly intuition tells me that my forthcoming plans will be wrecked. x(
3. I am looking forward to alot of things but the situation now is acting as a barricade.
4. My perfect grammer has taken its toll. My English is not any better than the ahbengs you see on the streets.
5. I think I might have already made grammatical errors in the previous sentences.
6. I need an overdose of Teddy 45 Degrees
7. And my bf.
8. I'm craving for food/shopping. Bf?!
9. I want to start on my vectors again.
10. Tmr's gonna be a sucky day. Goodbye

After reading something, I feel as if I have just directed a porn show in my head. It's absolutely repulsive and I am regretting it very very much now.
My bf and I share a very special kind of relationship. Of course, jealousy, bickering, hugging, kissing, bitching and even to the extent of sharing my bf with a villian/mafia, are just some normal stuffs that help make this relationship a special one. But, there's something mightier; both of us have a common understanding and have also acquired tolerance towards each other's queer traits, actions and thinking. No matter how shitty the situation may be, I can always count on my bf to provide the support and advice(which sometimes doesn't really work out to be advices). Bf, my opinion of you hasn't changed at all. Ever since we started off as friends to our current status.. Even with the whole xiasuay business and the fuckin toilet issue. Hehe.. I still love you for who you are, even if you decide to go on a marathon. It's perfectly alright. Who am I to condemn you when I'm no angel myself?! x) You want live reports? You gotit! I love you much honey! *muuuaaaacccckkks*

*Today is the day where good things happen at the wrong time.

My *siao has the most itchy cunt in the entire world. Hahahahahhahahahahahah x) -private joke- Pardon me for my uncouthness. I just had to say that to make myself feel better. It's stress. Really.. Btw *siao, you live up to being MY *siao too.
It's pointless going to school to have only 3 friggin useless so called "revision" lessons. I hate school. So what if I get to end at 1230pm everyday. It's even worse than having normal days. At least I go to school with a positive mindset. Now, only a few things come to my mind from the moment I wake up to when the bell signals for me to pack my bag.
1. I need to sleep some more!! Can I not go to school today?(Yes. I've been lacking sleep since last week.)But of course, I'd like to keep my clean record so I'll still end up going.
2. I don't understand shits about econs and I just wanna sleep more. I have this psychotic disease that tells me to feel sleepy even before the teacher comes in. I think I'm gonna fail econs for the exams.
3. I hate to study cos it just turns me off. Why am I still studying?! Cos I know there'll be no future for me if I don't.
4. I want to go to school to bitchbitchbitch. Anything, anyone even anywhere. Just like the stinky cubicles. *nudge siao*
5. And of course, I want to see the boy. x)
I'm still fuckin tired. But at least the fun made up for it. Sort of anyway. I need to study now. Not that I have a choice.

*Steffie, we're now known as the I.C. Hehehe

Honeyfiedsweetness. And I'm a true blue happy girl. x)

*The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved.

I hafta agree with my biatch that PS shouldn't be patronised unless you're out to watch a movie. After that trans-mat incident, that place just puts me off. To think I used to go there for my weekly piano classes. Hmmm..
Went to celebrate mosie's belated birthday right THERE. The place was wrong but the ambience was almost perfect. At least mosie's happy. And it has been sometime since the entire AFs met up together. This is so tragic. It's just too bad that everyone decided to give math mock a miss today(not that u ppl have anything to lose cos the paper was fuckin tough). Everyone but van and I. Good luck to you ppl when you do sit for the retest. Hahaha.
Joleen: Malay ahlians are called minahs. Now that u mention, I just remembered one of my classmates back in sec 4 having this verbal war with a minah in the canteen back in stc. The minah was calling my friend a minah(who's a indo-chi). Like wtf. And when the minah needed backup cos she realised that she was no where near winning the tongue lashing session, all her minah counterparts had left the canteen. Hahahaha. That was random btw.
I just realised how huge someone's ego can get. I mean I knew all along that it was enormous but only today did I realise it can get sooo bad that I felt like regurgitating my lunch. Bf and mo, remind me to tell you what happened. To think that you ppl were his ardent supporters. Thank god it's a entirely different story now. Eeeyer!!
Bf, iMu alot. You and I hafta depend on each other from now on. Don't neglect yr gf in the midst of having fun with your nan ren ok? x)

*Mobilising now in preperation for the Monday Blues.

Deb: Sorry. I've stereotyped ah bengs since i was 13. So no matter how far they've advanced in life, they'll still be the flat hair pieces of shit with those brown sharp comb stuck in the back pockets of perhaps some cheapo Jnco or Wutang brand jeans. To me of course. Oh yeah! How can I forget their chains! Chunky silver ones or totally outta this world fugly gold ones. No wonder the director of 77th Street(What Elim Chew is it?)looks like she's sufferin from a serious identity crisis. More like some cross between an ah beng and a old butch. Hahahhaha. Abt GH, it looks like it's gonna fall apart ANYTIME. It's not cubical looking is it? AA only talks abt "face". Look at poor outcasted B. tsk. I doubt she'd wanna humiliate herself in front of her golf taitais by leaving the house in a shade of mouldy green and cream. Have they even started mowing the lawn?! Or maybe dig a hole for that pool that Sampson's gonna utilise? hahha.. I wanna see that boy!

I think I'm sufferin the aftermath of doing too much chemistry. I was hearing khoo ranting on and on about abortion and it's implications. When I "woke" up, I found words on my notes like NaOH and a picture of the benzene ring being doodled. -cringes-

*No shits

Fuck man. I have to resort to using my entries as tag replies.
Before I start,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOSIELOHSEE!! BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY ANYMORE!! *iLu
Debs: Relax la. Try to look out for fugly boys with hair thats pressed flat down with gel, guys wearing awful yellow berms with No Fear or No Rules shirt. U know. The fuckin ugly kind that ah bengs wear? Yup. Those kind. And he'll look intensely at you, trying to catch your attention. Do yourself a favour. Don't wear your micro skirts anymore. At least for now.. U never know who's lookin at you! Fathin is a big loser. Don't bother. You gotta be kidding me about GH and its colour. I don't wanna step into Kampong Glam when I'm living in a prime area!!! Ahahhahaha.
Ching: Yeah. Fuckin "original". I think he should pick up bettter tips from shows with psychotic stalkers. *groans* Don't remind me of school please? I'm overcomed with fatigue everyday. It's a mad rush to finish math tutorial and all. How about you? Hang on hon.. at least we have the golden opportunity of seeing each other on Sundays. Even if it means with yuan.. I've begun to like him actually..
Siao: U know I miss you too! I hardly ever see you around anymore. Except when we have mocks on saturdays. LIKE THIS WEEK!!! YAY!!! *big hug dear* U owe me your infamous hug k?!
Joleen: I'm so sure you're STRAIGHT x). Sec1s are fuckin retards. Just like how we were back then. And PLS. Do you have to use up 5 tags?! Crazy girl!!! I wanna know joshua!! What's her name? I'm gonna check her out in the yrbook. Must be super cool, uber hot, can make me salivate till my saliva covers The Light On The Hill. Hahhaha. Can you not xia suay yourself with the No Rules? It was never cool and have always been passe to me. I'll never acknowledge you if I see you ard in town wearing that. Ok la. I know you were kidding. Abercrombie&Fitch and Von Dutch rocks la.. heh.. Of course I still do Organic Chem la. It's a major topic. Basically A level chem is a much more in-depth coverage of sec4 work. Gimme her url NOW. She sounds "intriguing". Hohoho

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Damien Rice-Cannonball

It's the littlest things (and more often that not, the unexpected ones) that help me get through the long and agonyfilledtothebrim days. Like today-I was exceptionally sleepy and grouchy and dry-eyed. Fuck. But... ;)
Break-outs(and their little anal friends) have decided to drop me a visit after 6 months.
I dunno what I'm typing already. Must be the stress. I hate tmr too.

*Death is but the beginning of another journey.

Replies.
Godsend: I've always been myself. Not really keen on putting on a facade unless absolutely necessary. x) school sucks. especially shithole!
Debs: REALLY??!! I drove past the house and was straining my neck to see the back. Didnt look any where close to being glam. I mean.. it's the Green House anyway. Maybe if they repainted it purple, it'll look 10 times better. Hahaha
Teong: You better stop your cock nonsense before you pay for your words. That smiley was just a warning. Maybe if you can recall what my bf and I did to your arm during the holidays?! Yup.. but worse. Hahahha. I'm not getting stalked la.. that fucker is just being a nuisance.. and I don't need a bodyguard.. Worse come to worse, I'll just ask peter to poke him lor. *evil grin*

The 20sec acknowledgement was bad enough. Maybe I didn't mean all those harsh words I said in the past. Maybe everything shouldn't have fucked up in the first place. Maybe the aura now has changed. I can't help but feel guilty. Maybe you should too.
Will keeping away from everyone for a few days bring about something I've been yearning for so long?
I actually like that idea of being a hermit crab for a day or two. No fuckin faces to see in school(especially the hypocrites that lurk by my side ever so often), no gp and econs tutorial that make me feel sleepy ever so often, no need to hide from whoever cos my uniform isn't in place. I could do with the staying at home bit. At least I can get work done.
Hopefully she is able to think with her head and not like other fuckers who do so with their asses.

*Once bitten, twice shy

Quick replies first.
Debs: Mine are psychotic. But I guess yours is worse. He can't even type correctly balls. All the mI iSh VeRy SaDz. Gosh.. I think it's just the girls' school thing. None of my gfs can tolerate these kinda typing. Absolutely disgusting. Btw, I happen to pass by the Green House and the tress were really chopped. I can see the backyard now. Garden looks big but the house isn't all that spacious huh?!
Yaosheng: I dunno who's the crazy psycho with all the SM. -roll eyes- I can't be bothered anymore.. I was just thinking. Maybe your presence would be greater appreciated if you didn't keep promoting yourself?! Hahaha.. your blog's growing fungi. Update la..
Godsend: one of the many avid readers? I think not.. Anyway, thanks! x)
Teong: omfg!! This is like your virgin tag on my board?! You're wols la.. My tag board has been vandalised by some psychotic killer on the loose. That's why it's funny. Maybe if you put a tag board on YOUR blog, you'll invite mental retards too. Maybe like your dearest gf called *maps. Hahaha. Or you know.. Joyce.. yeah!!! xP

Brought the dog for a walk. I felt that I lost 5kg. Which obviously isn't true cos I just weighed myself. Instead, I came back with a truckload of rashes. They've subsided a whole lot. Must be the saliva or fleas or whatever from fellow dogs.
I wonder how some people can just make assumptions from what they hear.. Especially when they claim that you're a good friend? And the other side who also claims that she's your good friend bitches so much behind your back too. Are they true friends? I say not. It's just unbelievable.. The amount of hypocrisy going on behind each other's backs. It's a danger zone we're all living in. People should just fuckin get their facts right before saying anything. Plain shallow assumptions and hear-say just turns me off. Bitch! I personally hate the latter. If they can do it to their so called good friend, they can do it to you too. Beware. It's just so wrong to hear it from you... Ohyesitis. Amazingly, I never knew people could bitch about close friends the way that some people do. Trust isn't the issue anymore. People who can't find topics with substance to bitch about, should just shut up for once. Motormouth!

Maybe today's indeed a fucked up day for me too. Just like how it is for others. Damn you mofos who spoil our day.

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you
:Simple Plan-I'd do anything:

That was a mighty pleasant surprise from *siao. -I love sweet surprises-
Today was just a motherfuckin tired day. Even the stupid coffee didn't perk me up. Ended up feeling sleepy the entire day. I was so adament to skip chem lect but due to some reasons, I didn't. Bloody waste of time. Bf and mo weren't even there. Ended up talking shits to matilda. Hur hur..
I swear I've never felt so tired in my entire life. Plus I had remedial which was another waste of time. The Relic should just be placed in the museum. *curses*
I'm having random thoughts. This is the consequence of a lazy brain. Honest!! I can feel that I'm becoming lazier.
So anyway, when I was walking home, this freak in the passenger seat of a red nissan stuck his arm out and made a gesture while shouting, "YOU WANNA LIFT HOME??"
I was stunned cos I was trying to think if I knew him? But no. It was a prank gone wrong. According to victor, nissans' are a typical stalker's car. Hahaha
I don't feel like blogging anymore.
Before I forget,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, SWAN AND MAOKAI!!!
And to fathin, I dunno who the fuckin hell you are and am not interested to know. Furthermore, small hands or big hands doesn't exactly intrigue me. You are the most loserfied, unqualified and unsuccessful stalker I've ever met. And I'm sure my assumption of you being a fat fuck is certainly 90% accurate. And if you ever happen to be some friend of mine who's playing this weak joke on me, don't ever let me find out your identity. Lastly, SM or not. I don't give a fuck. 2 words for you, fuck off!

*Officially, it's unofficial

STEFFIE INVADES!!
I looovvvee youuuuuu, e'an! (:

Whatthefuck?!
I haven't checked my blog in hours and my tag board has been vandalised?!
Lemme reply tags first.
Mo: I saw you many times today so why didn't you tell me what was so funny that happened on sunday?! I demand an explanation tmr! BIG TIME! Btw, can u don't be so mean? Give face to him on the account of our molationship pls???!!! x)))
Crystle: Clara's so fuckin typical la. She never approves of anything or anyone. She's sure to find some fault or defects in whatever that we think's nice. RIGHT CLARA LOH? And you biatch! Don't laugh! I haven't laughed at anyyyyy of your peachy incidents u realised? You girls ah.. too much la!!! x)
Godsend: Too bad but someone already told me the twist to the show. Hahaha
Siao: YA BALLS!!! You'd never imagine what happened to your cookies. I was motherfatherfuckin hungry in the middle of my ohsoboringineedtoeatsomething chem mock. So, I took the tupperware and placed it between the chairs whilst munching on your scrumptious/delicious/splendid/breath-taking/iamrunningouttaadjectivestouse cookies!! THEN! *horror* It dropped on the floor. But the cookie was in my hand la. So it's ok. Ya. Damn paiseh. I got greedy again so I did the same thing and it dropped again. Damn noisy. Fuckin mock made me so bored and hungry. Your cookies saved the day siao!!!! Make more for me please!! I want "E'an bf and mo" so 3 of us can share our love cookie! I'm so sure I heard groans from my bf and clara loh totally rolled her eyes la. Fuck! But really, it was goooooooooodddddddddddd
Fathin: I dunno who the fuckin hell you are or maybe I do. Stupid pranks that ppl play on me are becoming a norm now. I'm sure you haven't done your homework though.. cos I do not have small hands. *bigL*
Okok. Big news. My sis has decided to put her bloody obese labrador at my place PERMANANTLY. So bf, pls beware. Or maybe you'll drop the entire idea of coming over now. Hahahha.
Today's just *wow*. Once during the chem mock cos the paper was so doable if I studied. Which I didn't of course. And the 2nd time was when I tasted siao's cookie. 3rd time was when I went for night study ;) 4th time was when I saw the dog at my place when I came home and 5th was when I saw my tag board. So melodramatic sial.
Nothing else to say. I'm brain dead. Blame the mocks. They should mop my ass.

*Thank you..

I take my hat off to those people who are able the channel their energy to better use i.e mugging for the prelims/A levels. Cos I am not able to do so. Honestly, I have everything; from the conducive environment at home(besides the road works just outside), to (at last!) being free of fucked up relationship problems. But that crucial element! Yes. Motivation, is nowhere to be found.
Perhaps the fucked up bit of relationship problems, that never fail to occur during major events(In sec 2,4,jc1) has actually given me some form of motivation to study to vent my frustrations. So when everything is sweet, rosy and almost perfect like now, I can't fuckin study!
Everyday is just another wasted day. Wastedwastedwasted. I tell myself I'll get x amount of things done, but nooo.. God.. How am I gonna save my own skin when I'm not even anywhere close to being done with chem revision when the fuckin mock is tmr?!
That's it. A promise to myself shall now be kept. I'm starting now.

Quick replies:
Mo: DAMN!!!!!! Then quote it! Any AF member is entitled to rip anything off my blog(or Will Smith. hehe).. not patented. Hahaha. Seriously, this whole i-was-just-abt-to-do-the-same-thing thing is truly amazing!! It's telepathy mo.. BELIEVE ME!!!
Siao: You made cookies for meee??!! No wonder fi called me up to ask where I got the icing from!! Oh siao!!! You don't know how much I love you as a siao. *smuckers* x)
Ching: You get well too cousin! Anw, I said I'll update you right? It was x)))))

The Notebook wasn't as tear-jerking as everyone had claimed it to be. Nontheless, it's still worth watching.. If only true love in the plot was indeed true.. my heart will melt and cover a thousand miles. Okay. I'll cut the cheesy bit.. I can't wait to see my darling gfs again!

*Sniff

Re-edited:
I know I've always been a mean girl. But after reading what I said on crystle's blog, I truely realised how mean I can actually get. Hahaha. I read something on yesterday's Life! . As quoted by Will Smith,
"You're only as good as the people you associate with. Look at the five friends that you spend the most time with. That's who you are."
What more can I say? The AFs reign forever, of course. x)
Some fucker called Bad Weather has caused my nose to go on a marathon.
I hate to socialise and pretend to like people whom I absolutely detest. Especially Michelle. Right. If only she reads my blog. She has to be the most fuckin irritating person who laughs like a cross between a donkey and the donkey's ass. Plus I realised that everytime she's present, I fall ill. I'm not kidding. She's my living curse. Mofo
This post is disjointed eh?!

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

To be with you-Mr Big

Eh.. no significance. Just like the song. Bf and I relate so well to old rock. x)

*Goodbye

Arghhhhhh!!!! I've got tuition at 2 and I haven't finished the homework! She's gonna mark it! I'm fucked!!! It's only friggin MCQ questions from vjc. That's what it is. And I could only do 12(of which some was done based on guessing) I am sooooo motherdead! I'm gonna look thru the paper once I'm done with this post.
Quick updates:
Thursday- Chem test. Doing the mcq tys helps big time. I hope I do well. Khoo cancelled remedial so that was another x). Then I can't remember what happened until at night. My sister spoilt my nice nice conversation. Bitch!
Friday- I finally met Crystle biatch!!! With my alltimefavourite Bf and Mo of course. Though it wasn't as exciting and bitchified as I hoped for, it was still good. I miss you bitches! Damn this long weekend cos I wouldn't be able to see you people and the chem mock is uber "welcoming". Not forgetting the lousy Care Charity Walk nonsense. Bf and I were complaining from start till end. We left the lousy performance halfway to stone at some corner.
Anyway, the monthly thing is nothing but a girl's curse. It makes you binge on so much food and makes you sleepy instantaneously after that. As a result, I fell asleep at 1030pm. My record for the year. Which was of course bad cos I couldn't talk to lampa. The smses that I sent were typed with semi-consciousness. Hahaha. Sorry!!
I'm so gonna miss you shitloads. x(
'nuff said. I better go see how I can salvage my chem.

*Possessions at my own risk

I did the most bimbotic thing in my entire life. Yes. Even more bimbotic that the bimbotic rituals I perform everyday. It was career day in college today and the bp invited Tay Ping Hui and Jacelyn Tay over to give a talk on Acting as a career. Ex-cjcians you see.
So anyway, I finally met siao today and yup.. you guessed it. Both of us ran up to Tay Ping Hui and asked to take a photo with him together with Tannie and Charity. Muahahahahhahaha. HOW FUCKIN BIMBOTIC CAN I GET MAN!! I mean he's only a Mediacorp artiste. Not some Hollywood diva!
But seriously, he has the charisma. And he's bloody tall. My classmate said the photo looked fake cos it seems as though we cut his face outta the magazine and pasted ours next to him. -roll eyes-
The last time I took a picture with a celebrity was when Tom Cruise came to town for his Vanilla Sky promotion. Yes.. that was eons ago. But hell!! He is a hollywood star! And a major hunk!!!
You see, my big sis wanted to take a pic with him and ask for his autograph but felt damn paiseh cos she was rather old.. I think she was 26 back then? When I was sec 3/4 if I didn't remember wrongly. So she dragged me along to squeeze with rowdy, screaming girls so it would seem as if she was just tagging along. I swear I almost died in that crowd. But, WE took a photo WITH him and I got his autograph. Tom Cruise rocks!!!

*It's time for rain

Sweet 16th Joleen!!

On a more personal basis, the probability of missing both my siao and my crystle biatch is ONE. Fuckit. How can we be so close and yet so far!! I miss those panty days and just plain ol' bitching at coffee club.. Argh!!!!
I ripped this off Fi's blog cos I think this is too damn good a joke to be missed.
mr ang: "the elasticity of demand is -0.42, what can we say about fish?"
robbie: "it is dammmmmm good!"
Hahahahhahaa.. Unless you take econs and understand the basic fundamentals of Demand and Supply( which I am darn sure everyone does cos even I do. And you ppl shld know. My econs really SUCK), this joke is pointless. x)
Which brings me to another point. I've always hoped for younger and funkier teachers. See, they make dreary subjects seem more interesting. Of course you gotta have classmates like Robbie. But that's another story. Having a chemistry teacher that chinese-piaks the whole damn day and not be able to construct a simple equation and balance it, really shows how imcompetent he is. Gfs, don't complain about your teacher cos mine is perpetually UNPREPARED 24/7. Tell me what do you learn if all the answers flashed, are straight outta the tys.. I must rely on myself again. Hahahah

*Someone just told me that I can even complain about not having anything to complain about. How true. x)

-Inject the message into my brain. Make me realise that anticipating isn't gonna turn out good. Well, seldom anyway. I'm r.i.g.h.t this time-
I think all those mock exams, upcoming tests and overdued assignments on top of tuition and remedial hw is starting to make me hallucinate.
You just heard from a grouchy and very very uptight girl.
And I'm sorry if I offended anyone who feels that this post is directed at him/her. I have no control over what comes outta my mouth lately.
There's road works going on outside my house. I can smell the tar and you know what? I'm addicted to it; just like how I love going to the petrol kiosk. It smells better than fuckin fags.

*I'm used to that kinda treatment

I turned to my left,
and found the same feeling I thought I had abandoned.
Fear grabs hold of my neck,
and I can feel its fingers coiling tighter around it.
Slithering like a snake,
it dragged me along with it.
My fate has been sealed.

Reservations have been made. Or so I was told.
Maybe people should think carefully before promising or in this case, find the perfect excuse to shun away from whatever it is. Already overly paranoid at the slightest things, the last thing I need is for people to tell me stuffs that contradict reality.

*Turn your back against me and walk away. I should have known better than to believe.