Something my dad said made me seriously upset. I really wonder what would happen if the unthinkable really happens. I don't wanna end up like the rest of them when everyone else continues getting educated. Sometimes, I think that my dad is being really unfair and unjust. I don't recall him saying the same thing to my other 2 sisters. It's about time that he realised that all 3 of us are different and it really isn't entirely my fault that I wasn't born brilliant or academically inclined. He has to face up to reality that he'll never be able to mould me into something that he wants, but I'm not.
Shit. I'm really scared. Seriously.
Swan, would you be ever so kind to lemme move into your place if my future goes downhill from then on? I mean seriously! Don't treat this as a joke cos I'm pretty sure that this will be happening to me in due time. Oh fuck.
The only thing that cheered me up today was that I busted my bank account by getting my Roxy sweater. The one that I've been eyeing for so long, considering whether to buy for so long. Yes. And I bought it with my own money pls. Not my parents, not my sis's. MY OWN money from the salary I earnt last year. And also, the pedicure that swan and I went to get today. Amateurs we are. I mean, I don't have excess of disposable income to spare you know?! So yeah. It was a really nice experience and I hope I'll try it again.
Sigh.. maybe I've indeed made the wrong choice, being where I am today. Perhaps, my fate and destiny might have changed if I altered the route I took. I seriously think that there isn't anything wrong in wallowing in self pity. Everyone leads a tough to get by
life, once in a while. Mine seems to be stuck in that period of time almost 2/3 of the time.
I've lost the mood to blog. I hate my life.

*Bounded by fears