Having the math paper tmr. I don't feel like studying. Yet. So yeah. Tried out this lousy quiz cos I'm bored. Oh btw, siao, Have you washed the photos from sports day yet????

name four bad habits you have:
1. I cuss and swear too much
2. Procrastinating things kinda often
3. I tend to mood swing way too easily
4. Stone/daydream

name four things that you wish you have:
1. A decent set of results at the end of the year
2. Driving license (god... i need that so much!)
3. Er.. I don't quite believe in wishes anymore. They don't come true anyway.
4. -

name four perfumme brands you love:
1. Tommy Girl
2. Escada
3. Clinique
4. Estee Lauder

name four things you'd never wear:
1. Whatever ah lians wear
2. Shirts that are fakely branded
3. Whatever that the old cj teachers wear. Urgh. Fashion disaster
4. Clothes you find from OG. Hahahha

name four things you are thinking about right
now:
1. I'm really gonna start on my math after this
2. I'm really really gonna start on my math after this (yes. I'm feeling guilty)
3. What I'm gonna do tomorrow after the papers
4. Why do I have to study so much

name four things that you have done today:
1. Revised math
2. Taught Steffie math x)
3. Bitched. Duh!!!
4. Doing this lame shite

name the last four things you have bought:
1. Some noodle in school(thats for lunch)
2. Heels(that was like 2 weeks ago?)
3. Erm... Baileys and Tequila(ya gurls. That was long. I need my $$ back!)
4. Fuck la. Haven't been buying stuffs

name four people you would like to spend more
time with:
1. My AFs
2. Ianna
3. My dearest E'Ching
4. and her neighbour x)
I'm gonna include my own number 5.
5. Debbie!!!!

name four drinks you regularly drink:
1. Water
2. Ribena
3. Lemon Barley
4. This is new and temporary. The awful chinese medicine. Twice a day

name four random facts about yourself:
1. I bitch alot
2. I'm a slut *winks at bf*
3. I like to say fuck alotalotalot and ppl think that I'm a mean girl. Till they get to know me that is.
4. I do not smoke or take drugs and neither do my gfs. So screw that fucker and his little group of friends who assumed. Clara would say this " stop making an ass outta you and me."


Finally.. I'm really doing math now. ONE MORE PAPER!!!!!

Omg... my whole estate plus ulynn's plus bf's plus yaosheng's plus everyone who lives in the west had this super major blackout.
There I was, happily trying out this nonsensical online quiz and the computer just shut down. Yeah. I shouted "WHAT THE FUCK?!", completely forgetting that I'm at home. But I figured no one could be bothered to give a damn.
So there I was, frantically calling everyone on my phone book trying to find out who's having blackout problems. Ulynn was the 1st on my list; being the nearest.
Well. 30 mins and the lights are on again. But the houses below are still pitch black and I think Greenleaf's still black cos Ulynn just msged saying she's playing with sparklers with Stanley and the rest. Hahhaa.. This is like HOW COOL! Thank god I don't have any papers tmr if not i'll be fucked to the core.
To Guoyi, E'Ching, Clara: LOUSY!!!!! We had a blackout and we rock. As quoted directly from my dearest bf.
Can you imagine when we're having our chem paper/ math paper and this thing happens? The hall will be so dark and they'll hafta cancel our exams!!! I mean they can't make us resit cos we've already seen the papers.. yay!!! Just like last time when there was a power failure at Toa Payoh or smth and Bao Luo Ge( pls say it in the prostitute manner: slutty ) let us off early?!
Ok. I can't believe that I'm getting all excited about just a peanut blackout. If only it was the act of terrorists. I'll be elated!!!

How bad is bad?
To the extent you feel like you just poured acid onto a freshly opened wound.
Like someone took a needle and pricked your already deflating confidence balloon.
This totally fuckin sucks.
How much is enough?
Is it to the point whereby you know every single thing inside out and that you are able to regurgitate everything you've memorised?
Excuse me, but I admit that my brain capacity isn't made to store that much of information.
People might say that, oh.. it's just the mid years. Can always work harder for prelims.
But fuck! I HAVE worked fuckin hard for my chemistry. But like I said, How much is enough then? All that stupid shit 1 week of non stop chemistry has gone down the drain. It's yet another mediocre grade.
I can't believe I'm doing this to myself once again.

*Strained thoughts

It's the littlest thing that you do, that makes me really happy.
I don't require daily smses or late night talks on the phone. I don't have the urge to see you everyday or even long to hear your voice.
It's the surprise and the adrenaline rush that I get when I see your name in my inbox, that puts a smile on my face. Now I know that you still care and that's all that matters.
I never knew I could still feel this way amidst all these.
I thought I could only be ecstatic and elated with my gfs around but you've proven me wrong once again.
It's times like these, when I realise that I've neglected you in some way or another. That you've been absent from my live for far too long. That I can't help but say that I kinda miss you.

*That was what I needed to make my day complete

I aint gonna complain abt piss face today though he's just downstairs again. Decided to make today's post a little more smiley.
Studying today has gotta be the most fruitful and funniest ever. Like cos bf went to hide in the library to probabilitise( another ingenious invention ) whilst mosie and I stayed outside. We managed to get alot of shit done today. Mosie, I hope you kinda got the hang of CRV. x) And many many thanks to Fi'zer cos her math is super powered! Siao finally joined us today after her paper and nothing beats quality time spent with siao.
The bus ride to town with bf, mo, siao, fi, vanessa&ahlao and teong was just so fuck funny. I know it's damn xia suay to hang around with me esp when my siao is around so yeah. Just call me Miss XS. Well, at least teong felt that way la. And I can't blame him. Or matt. Laughing ourselves silly with the topic of panties. *big grin*
Siao, now I know what to do if the unexpected happens!! You're just too cool for my arse I swear!
Crystle, you are always MIA when we do stupid stuffs. But I bet you are having much much more fun in NP eh? Hahaha.. AFs meet after the exams ok??
Right. I'm gonna mug again.
I just love my gfs!
Who needs guys anyway..

*You're my sugar rush

Every thursday is that super sucker's wayang entertainment time at my place. Goddamnit. Is my life so cursed that he's bound to find some amusement when my parents or my sister starts their shit talk about anything? I swear I saw that smirk on his face. It isn't foreign for sure. I've seen it every thursday. Whatever 8 characters thing that the Chinese believe in, I'm sure all 8 of mine opposes his. Not like I give a damn but I can't stand the fact that he's gloating over my misfortune at my place. It's just too bad that my dad favours my sister so much that he chooses to close BOTH eyes to whatever that piss face does.
I can't even bear to look him straight in his face cos it's really un-bearable. It's nauseating, revolting and 10 times worse than the world's worst hangover. Don't even wanna mention about his obnoxious tone. Yeah. He's become more arrogant over the 4 years he has dated my sis. He learnt that she's the favourite one afterall. Throwing his so called " authority" when my parents' aren't in town. Some kinda authority that I don't even respect.
I think that person has become so damn pathetic that even my 2 month old niece can't even stop crying when she sees him. No honestly, she WAILS non stop. Thank god my big sis has always been allowing me to cuss and swear to vent my frustration. Said I could always go over to her place and I shouldn't argue with them cos I'll always be at the losing end. True enough. I feel so lousy.
Godsend, I dunno who you are ( or maybe I do ) but thanks for the advice.
Sam, I find it hard to provoke those tear glands now.

*The fact that I wasn't born to be a hypocritical 2 faced bitch has caused me so much trouble.

Sometimes, I wish I could wake up and give a big sigh of relief on knowing that my life for the past 17+ years was nothing but a horrible horrible dream. Unfortunately, I know it isn't. It's not even anywhere close to it.

*I'll cry my heart out if I was still a little girl. But I'll have to do otherwise for now.

Maybe it was another unnecessary doing on my part but wth man... The anxious little bitch was already playing tricks with the partially sane me! I know curiosity killed the cat but I'm not the cat and I'm not dead. Stop laughing cos it wasn't meant to be a joke. You people laugh at the wrong stuffs. When I tell you guys a real joke, you say it's weak. Now I'm telling you there wasn't any pun intended so shut up already!!!
Omg... I'm getting way too uptight lately and I don't see a fuckin reason for it. What's more, the last thing I need is for anyone to mention a certain someone unnecessarily. To the fucker who will never read my blog post in a gazillion years, I'm still gonna tell you to screw yourself. It's just too bad that I found you're little so called joke, uber lame. You don't have to come play those mind games with me, saying that the fucker found it cool. Cos it's not and neither are you. Jackass!
Either there's something very wrong with ij girls' luck or it's the other way round. ie: the bad aura from the bastards' side. I prefer to believe the latter. I mean looking at my girlies' luck, minus mine and a minority of others, it seems to be screaming " hell good! ". So yup. All fingers pls point towards where the bastards unite. Yup. No qualms about it.
Maybe it's time for me to seriously consider being a full time les. Hahaha. Right. The possibility of that is as good as zilch. Teong, pls reconsider my suggestion of a sex change and then becoming my lesbian partner. I lost interest in my Butchy Vic. x) Think about it, it's kinda cool that you don't have a thing hanging in between your legs and you can wear pretty thongs!!! Tricia loves girly eyes so why not give it a serious thought. RIGHT SHA????
Fuck man. I ain't making any sense that's cos I'm still furious. Damnit Damnit Damnit!!!!
Siao, I agree with you. Screw Father's Day and the dayS after that ( though I dunno why exactly. But it sounds cool.) I feel like thrusting my middle finger high up in the air and shout really loudly " FUCK THE FREE WORLD AND ALL THOSE STIKIN' BASTARDS!!! " Siao, do it with me when school reopens k? Sheesh... guys in white are a nasty bunch. Look around man.. don't just stereotype the schools but.. you know...

*ERGHH

You know what? I think she's gonna pay him for sex. Enough said. I shouldn't say too much on my blog since it's public. Don't get what I'm saying? Too bad. You'll know it soon enough if you're supposed to.
Another lesson learnt. When tricia is w/o clara, she's harmless. When clara is w/o tricia, she's harmless. But when you put them together, you aint gonna get studying done if you don't have ear phones stucked in your ear. I swear, the bitching and gossips and OC stories they share are dangerous. I wonder what life would be like for me if I got posted to t29 instead. Somehow, I still love the company of my mosie and bf. Too bad crystle isn't there. Or else, it'll be super power packed and I can jolly well kiss my good grades for math goodbye. Might as well dump my math stuff back into my bag and go to some coffee joint to bitch. Hahhaa

*Sorry for the mental-ness girlies. You know "popularity reigns here"

Shit man... The anxiety felt is just too overwhelming. I'm not regretting anything yet and I presume I won't be feeling that way cos it's been 1 day. I know myself. All it takes is just a few hours. I need to calm myself down. I need to revise some Statistics to calm myself down. Math is my miracle potion...

*A sigh of relief

My bf has ran off with another man. I feel so retarded now. Without my bf and the morning hugs which she so hates cos she'll have to be in the constipated position till my teacher comes along, my life is gonna become a mess. That's cos she ran off with a man. Damnit. Tricia Low, don't lie. Although you told me the truth over the sms yesterday.
I haven't been a demanding gf for the past 169879198 hours right? At least I don't force you to say things. But now I'm gonna make you do so. I'm gonna duel with the man like how Harry Potter duelled with Lord Voldemort. (ps. I finished reading the book for the 2nd time). If I lose, I'll let you run off with the man but before you do so, ask him to be a MAN and fight it out with me. Hur hur hur..
Okay. I had my fun. Sorry to my bf for making her so embarrassed. x) Bf oh bf, I love you sooo much although you still never pay attention while reading my email even after reading twice. This shows how much you love me. Hmphh.. I can't wait to see you in school! Then clara you and I can sit next to each other during the exams but I hope I don't have to see KB Ong standing by your table looking quizzical just cos you fell asleep after 30 mins into drawing pentagons.Hahahahha. We shall go shopping together and siaoing with siao and the rest at lido like the past ok? Take trillions of stupid pics with the bunny and crystle ok? Okokokokok?
You've been the bestest bf anyone could ask for. I bet you're even better than a real bf cos you don't have a threatening dick. Muahahahhahhahahhaah.

*Confused little girl

I'm bored. I just finished cramming stuffs on Finance. Not sure if it's gonna stay till the 29th though. Anyway, Alan, hahaha.. to hell with ravish and justin. They only bring back haunting memories. I remembered ravish borrowing my mirror constantly and when I took it back, it broke. Damn. I seriously thought I was gonna have bad luck for 7 years. Or maybe it's true. Gimme your blog url!!!!!
Debs, I meant to tag this but somehow, long tags never get through. -> I just realised that even if no one else bothers to read my already decaying blog, you'll definitely do so cos there's so much to bitch about fuckygodma and Guali. Even though it can be revolving around the same topic for months. Hahaha. Plus, the newly included family members. Gosh!!! You're my bitching/eating/latenight/everything partner. All rolled into one. ilu debs! Hope your pay cheque comes quick *ka-ch$nggg* so we can fuck care the diet once in a while and pig out at holland again. Who knows who we might see there.. x)
Anon/hi, presume you're the same person. Thanks for the comments. x)
You know. It's such a paradox that people utilise my tag board for those "hate tags" and there are people like anon/hi. The irony of it all. Oh well..
I'm having this sudden impulsiveness to do something that I might regret after clicking the "send" button. Ah. What the hell. I'm going to do it anyway. Things are already so bad. Not much harm done if it turns out wrong anyway.

*Emotions getting outta control

*shrieks* MY NIECE IS BACK IN MY ARMS!!!!!
My sister dropped her at my place and is starting her exercising regime to lose weight. Hahahah... Having quite a bit of difficulty typing with one hand and the other's aching like fuck. Okay. The grandma just took away the love of my life ( after my dog that is ). Sheesh. She totally can't pronounce her name la. Ianna (E-anna) sounds like Yan-na after it comes out from her mouth. I already told her to call her by her chinese name but she refused. My mom's really a dumb ass la. First thing she called back from Thailand was to ask, " Does the baby hate you?" Wtf... less than 2 months and she can't even recgonise faces. What more talk about hatred. Damn my mom. I should have replied her, " Oh.. Ianna can run already!" A dumb fuck answer for a dumb fuck question. Hahaha
Today is the 2nd day. I nearly wanted to drag the chair home for charlie's together with my ass stuck on it. Can't believe Charlie's librarian and Wei Li actually thought it was funny. Was suffering from uncontrollable laughing fits cos of what some idiot said. I swear I felt some leakage. Hahha. Ok. I'll stop. Sounds gross..
Nothing to update. Life's the same. Except that I'm almost done with my 2nd round of reading Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire. Econs notes made a progress of one chapter. I'm at International Finance. It's Math week next week. Goodbye to econs till I settle my math Good and Proper. Bye ppl. I'm gonna find my sweet peas.

*Urgh

This is gonna be a shortie update.
1. Parents are back. Scandalous couple have gone on a holiday at Phuket. x)
2. I hope money flows back into my wallet.
3. I've complained to the main authority. My dad. My mom's on THEIR side.
4. Dad better take serious action since my stupid sister didn't help SHIT for 18 days. And he knows it.
5. Superb ice cream lunch with Debs at Swensen's. Totally pigged out my frustrations. Though it's back again.
6. Should go to Holland Village more since I live so nearby. Before I get married and evacuate to some ulu part of the island where only lame heartland malls are available.
7. I'm going to feel sorry for myself before I catch Paris Hilton on tv and then when I feel better (or not) I'm gonna start doing my econs tys for the first time(on my own accord)
8. I'm still pissed as you can see. And I wonder who the fuck still reads my blog. It's dying and no one knows.
9. I need a hp that doesn't stop swiching off by itself, doesn't have stupid vibration problems and a coloured screen. I feel like I'm living in the stone age.
10. Lastly, FUCK YOU!

Lacking the motivation to stay put in your seat and trying to cram those shitass econs theory into your brain but it hell isn't working, sounds like a norm. Closet muggers ( as clara puts it ) say the same thing. I wonder how many out of 10 actually mean what they say. I really really regret taking my present combination. I don't have a flair for writing. Maybe except for sappy poems and multiple-page long letters. Not forgetting, blogging. I screw up any subject that requires the me to fill up the lines with words i.e, gp and econs. I do perfectly fine with numbers and perhaps drawing pentagon shaped nonsense. I'm destined to fail econs this time round.
Yesterday, I had a 5 hour chat with Debbie. I wanted to update her about everything and then hang up and try to get back to my Keynesian theory. ( I haven't even browsed through any thing about Role Of Government thank you. Ps: Damn you econs teachers, for giving us EVERYTHING to study for. You know, perhaps they should select students to sit for the exam. That'll be like less than 30? And they won't have to waste their red ink by striking crosses. This is what I call productivity. No pun intended ) But the whole thing abt Fuckygodma and kok yeAH got us so damn engrossed so yeah. The conversation ended at around 4am. Wonderful!!! Debs has to be my all time late night bitching partner. I have my day time/ school time/ after school time bitching partners aka AFs, my night time bitching partner aka Debbie and now, I found myself a impromptu bitching partner. Tiffany Koh. Hahaha.
God. I don't even know why am I laughing. And my posts are getting longer by day which totally doesn't make any sense cos my life's so mundane. I can't find any thing that has substance to blog about.
I feel like I'm going to sink into depression real soon.-> Mosie, don't jump to conclusions. I've already fuckcared him. Honestly. It's just that I'm so sick of facing the same problem everytime. Do people always have to push the responsibility to someone else? What happened to guys and their guts? Seems like they're all becoming fuckin wuss's. No offence to any guy reading this. I'm just in one of my another sexist mood.
Debbie, you know what? I think I found the root of the problem. He is indeed taking responsility for what he has done. Just not towards me. Notice Fuckygodma and the rest of the Fucky family are still on good terms with him. Just like how you put it, a seriously weird case of relationship; beck and call. Am I making any sense to you? So it's like if I sign myself up as the newest member, perhaps I'll receive the same treatment. Not that I am but I'm just thinking of the possibilities that things might then take a different turn. I'm already done with the shits but he still plans for this kinda thing for me to greet Fuckygodma. What on earth is he thinking?! If only I could knock him unconscious, cut open his head and take out his grey matter to analyse. Gee......
I have ranted enough. Thank you for your kind attention.

*Did I mention that I hate liars???

It was a really horrible experience when I saw Annie. Suddenly, I realised that I needed to call one of my gfs up badly. I needed some company besides that Guali. Then, it occured to me that all my AFs live in the East and North of Singapore. I lead a sad life. So, I decided to call my 911 hotline aka Lee U-lynn. Told her abt the horrible situation and she dashed down in 15 mins. Before Annie arrived. Surprisingly enough, she looks better in real life. Got nice legs. At least nicer than mine. Maybe just a lil less toned. Yeah. Figure quite ok. Err. Right ulynn?
When she did, omg. We were all disgusted by her total I-am-so-pissed-cos-E'an-is-here look. And Guali was goddamn terrified that he had to go to the toilet twice to talk things out. Yes. Dearest Tiffy walked in while they were doing smth. Hahaha. Disgusting.
On the phone with Debs, she gave a good reasoning on how come it was so coincidental to see her. Annie told him that she was going to HV Delifrance and so he suggested for us to study there. So it was the accidentally-purposely bump into her thing. I think its karma since I used to use that plan so much. That must be it.
Hi teefy!!! *waves* it was nice bitching together. Reminds me of the good ol' days back in stc. See you soon... Debs said she missed out the fun of seeing Annie. Hahhaa
Movie was good, dinner was good. E'Ching rocks!!!! x)
Anyway, I can't stand fuckin liars. I don't mind if it's a white lie. But you distinctly lied to me. Fucker. You could have told me the truth when I asked you earlier on. But no. You waited till I left and immediately whipped out your phone. Fucker. Laughing like some mad banshee. Fucker. Your bus came but you didn't board. Fucker. I know your lies. I HATE IT WHEN YOU LIE TO ME!!!!

*I'm a meow. NOT!!

I honestly can't stand the stupid shaw organisation. I knew that its one messed up, unorganised organisation. Stupid crappy seats with ultra bad service at the ticket counter. Now even their website is screwing up on me. Wtf. I have to SIGN UP and then LOG IN before I can check listings? Screw you! If lido hadn't been the most convenient place for cjcians, I wouldn't even be bothered to watch there. At least cathay provides cute eye candies at the counter unlike stupid lido, who only have big time attitude problem aunties and ah peks who go " Sow me your IC plees" when you are watching an NC16 show. Goddamnit. In school uniform also must check. Go to hell la, bloody incompetent workers.
I'm so damn fuckin pissed! Trying to check tmr's listing for Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind also got so much prob. I'm really the last person on earth to even catch a glimse of that show. Oh. Provided if I can find someone to watch it with me tmr, and that lido will still be showing. URGH!!!
And yes, yuan. My big sis just wants me to blog this here so that you can see and complain to your mom.
I found FD and FL's secret. They busted $2700 on a pair of wedding bands from Tiffany & Co. So much for their cheapskate photoframe as my big sis's ROM gift. I was snooping ard when that blue plastic bag caught my eye. I opened the bag and there it was. Two beautifully wrapped up boxes tied in lovely white ribbons. Too bad it belonged to them. x( That's it. I'll post more when my big sis bitches with me. Ching, stop saying that I'm damn bad. I'm not. Seriously. I told you the whole reasoning behind. Now don't you agree with us??? Once my dad comes back, I'm gonna hand him over a long list of things I wanna complain to him abt Terence. Wheeee... That's for bossing me ard in my own house.
Ok. I'm still damn pissed cos of the movie thing. Shit

*x(

This skin would have to do for the mean time. Yes. I know the background takes eons to download. Be patient. It's a virtue. *omfg. I can't believe that came out from my mouth*
Can someone tell me if the blog ad is blocking the thing? Cos my computer's resolution is screwed. Basically, everything's been screwed since that bastard called Terence Lim decided to fuck around with the security settings. Thanks to the laments of my mom.
Well, I'm glad my big sister decided to call today to bitch about that scandalous couple. She had a good laugh after I told her what crystle commented on about the "screaming" issue. You rock!
Might be going shopping with my sis next week cos my bro-in-law is going to Bangkok. She's driving and bringing the baby along. All will happen only if I manage to complete my daily dose of studying. Sigh. For Ianna, I shall.
Yesterday's post was typed with semi-consciousness. My apologies. I woke up today with a horrible hangover but like I told clara, it can't be any worse than the experiences the other 3 had before. Bad sleep; woke up at tri-intervals( I invented that word) cos I was bloody dehydrated and needed to piss. My rashes starting acting up yada yada. I couldn't stand it. Staggered outta bad with a throbbing headache at 8am. Till 2pm, the thought of baileys and tequila was good enough to cause me to feel like hurling. I think I had better abstain from alcohol till my phobia's gone.
Crystle and her Irish Cream. Hahaha.. Babe, agreed. We were totally wasted but you were worse. Thank god bf and mosie were perfectly sane to help us. GOD!!! I have no idea why I was laughing at your stupidity like a hyena cos it isn't funny now, when I think of it. Sorry. You have to control. If I were drunk, you'll prob walk ard the house and this will appear.
Girl, 18 17, falls down the stairs while viewing friend's house. Died.
-Inside joke-
My oh my. I love you girls so much. I know I am unable to fully comprehend the dilemmas, confusions and uncertainties of your respective situations, but I just wanna tell you darlings that you should stop doubting your worthyness, stop worrying and questioning whether fruits are your favourite, and lastly, to stop thinking too much on whether it'll work out. Because,1. Worthyness is being too humble. You really ARE a special and unique individual that exude qualities that makes people go "wow". Don't doubt. I love you though you aren't miss perfect. No one is anyway.
2. Although answers to your infinite questions may not be significant or even answered straight away, they will eventually become obvious. Take time to listen to your heart. Don't let your head rule your heart cos that's the stupidest thing to do ( in this kinda situation that is). Many atimes, ppl miss out on opportunites that are hard to come by as a result. And sheesh!! Don't be so self reprimanding. You did not do anything wrong and you're not a bitch. I mean you are a bitch but not that bitch you think you are. Okay? Take it slowly. I'm sure you're loving it anyway. I'm just a phone call away! *muacks*
3. You think tooooo much. Stop it stop it stop it. I honestly dunno why you have to think so much. The shits of a girl. hahaha. Go with the flow-> all 3 of you. If it's meant to be, it will be. And you, number 3. You're the greatest shit lan sai I can ever wish for. Boys or no boys, cars or no cars, I'll still be your **. Worse come to worse, I'll take 7 with you ok? x)
I end with that.

*I'm sane now. Really

Ok. So I did get very high that I can't even type fucking properly. The effects of alcohol. You ask crystle on how I staggered to the damn toilet after 3 shots, 1 tequila and 2 baileys. High. But not gone. I'm still very much sane but only thing is that I'm a little off. Just like crystle. Sorry girls, for my sis spoiling the whole night with her sudden appearance. She gave me a good shelling after u guys left about holding my own liquor and all and also, to even allow bf and mosie loh to go out at such an hour when blangla's are lurking. -gosh-. gimme a break. My nerves are numb and you guys have no idea how many times I've pressed the "back space" button due to my inability to type correctly. I'm seriously thankful that I do not have the clara syndrome cos I'm gonna be knocked out anytime. Bye
ps: I really really love my darlings esp the 3 who came over today. You ppl don't have to doubt my words cos although I might me really high and my breath reeks of alcohol, I'm certain of what I'm saying.

*Alcohol makes me happy

Sorry to all my darlings if i have been a pissing pain in the ass. Afterall, I've been un-informed abt the going ons. I've tried to be as discreet as possible so that nosey parkers who do not know where they should poke their noses to, won't get a shit idea on what's going on. In my mind, there's a vague description on what's going on in mosie/crystle/bf's life. But, the full story isn't out yet. The moral is, do not keep me in suspense for so goddamnlong. I'm dying and suffering. It's like a flower being deprived of its basic needs; water. Like the barren desert so so dry that even the cactuses are wilting. Like how crystle and bf have consumed all my bananas in my Earth Quake, leaving me nothing but clara's alltimefavourite nuts.
Shit. That's a awful analogy. But by the time all of them get to read this, I hope I've gotten my facts right and that I can just strike off this post!
That was another emotional outburst. I've calmed down..

-I long to cradle you in my arms,
and watch you smile back at me.
You've grown so different
since the last time I saw you.
But something deep down inside
Tells me that you're still my baby.
My baby for eternity.
I love you, sweet peas-

*High

If there's anything for me to look forward to for this coming week, it's as follows.
1. I get to see my niece later on at my grandma's. I haven't seen her for 2 friggin weeks and I say, I miss that kiddo. Sister said she grew longer( I say longer cos you can't really measure horizontal-ness in terms of height right? since technically she can't stand up straight, we shall use length as the measurement). Shit. I so damn envy those long legs of hers. I tell you, she's gonna grow up to be tall and slim( my sister's genes) and I can sorta see the bitchness on her face( my genes).
2. The long awaited drinking session with my beloved gfs tmr. It was postponed and I had to live saturday in misery.
3. No more gruelling, filthy and small talking session with "stacey" -> crystle shall know who it is. We have been officially seperated. x)
4. I don't even get to see that bastard at all!!!! *big big smile* Let's see.. -counts- already 1 month. I endure to live.

Yup. That's it. So I'll see you peepz when I see you. Adieu!

*Fragments of whatever that still lingers

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

This name sucks btw. I am sooo not funky. Stupid test

You know, it's so wrong to be living the kinda lifestyle that I'm living now. I totally dozed off after reading 2 pages of Nitrogen Compounds and only woke up at 7pm. That's about 4 hours of sleep. As a result, I am suffering from insomnia. Hah. But I managed to study consecutively for 4 hours straight and only slept at 4am. Am proud. But not very cos I'm way behind time. So after this, hopefully I don't konk out before I even flip throught my Electrochemisty notes. Hahaha
Just a random thought; it feels so natural;so right that I'm beginning to wonder if it was nothing but a major mistake.

*Glorious expedition

I can't stand it when I lend stuffs to people and then the items come back to my hands, FILTHY, DIRTY and treated like DIRT. Be grateful that I even lent it to you, and don't show me that stupid look of yours like I'm obliged to. Cos you fuckin insensitive, moronic bitch, I'M NOT. No thank you or whatsoever. Just shoved it under my nose. Well, this is the first and last time I'm ever gonna lend you anymore of my things. I hate it when my worksheets are crumpled or when my blouse is stained. I happen to be a VERY clean, hygienic and organised person. Just cursed to be living in the area where Filthe lurks.
Secondly, my loser sister and her fucked up boyfriend is irritating the shit outta me. Everyday, I'm faced with the torment of having dinner with the both of them and today, was the worst. He fuckin took my dad's remote control for the auto-gate and put it in his stupid van( which btw, belongs to my dad's company. my dad merely let him use the car since none of his workers need it ). His stupid van reeks coz there are scented stuffs blowing thru every single air con outlet, the back is in a mess cos my sis and him are always getting on. Sunshades are stuck all over so it looks like a mat's van and I despise him. Fuckin shameless couple who even tries to get intimate when I'm less than 2m away. Talk about the whole "i'm still a virgin" crap talk. It's all bull shit. I don't care if he's gonna become my fuckin brother in law soon cos he goddamn doesn't deserve any respect from me. They are so damn cheapskate( mind you, he works in HP and my sis is a civil servant) that they got my elder sis a damn photoframe for her ROM. !!!!!! My parents on the other hand, adores him cos my second is the perfect daughter, obedient and has very good PR ever since young. My elder sis and I often look bad cos we do not pretend and we're direct. As a result, we're condemn. But I don't fuckin give a damn either.
That bastard psychoed my dad into building a stupid fish pond which is breeding mosquitoes. Worse still, parents are away and they gave me the responsibility of feeding those retard creatures who only have what 15sec attention span? HELLO??? I wasn't the smart alec that came up with the fuckin idea of making a fish pond. My sis tried to help out with the house chores by feeding the fish and his response was, "don't bother. your dad asked yr sis to do it so if the fishes die, he'll only blame her. not you. -smirks-"
I've never met someone as evil and cunning as them. And honestly, looking at him struting around the house like it belongs to him simply makes me wanna kick him in his goddamned balls. He flicks the tv channel like no one else is watching and throws a tantrum when I wanted to watch World Idol yesterday. Just because he wanted to watch a show on HBO. Need I remind him that this house belongs to ME? Everyday, he comes back to my house, lie on the couch like he's in his own home ( god! Have some decency and respect for yourself), hugs the cushions and sometimes sit on it. Now I know why my skin is so bad. Freeloads off everything and just the day before, the both of them gave some crap excuse like they have to warm up my dad's car engine and then scooted off to god knows where and came back only 45mins later. I'm sure they were making out at the back seat at Mt Faber. I might just consider moving to my elder sis's place till my parents get back. Afterall, it's all a facade when my parents are back. Polite and courteous. Jackass. I can't believe he even tried bossing me around IN MY OWN HOUSE.
Terence Lim. You just fuckin watch out. Karma will get back at you and you shall expose all your scandals in front of EVERYONE. I hope you get my sis pregnant even before the chinese ceremony so EVERYONE will know that you both are so fuckin scandalous. Eat your candyassdick, you piece of shit!!!!

*Mental disorder

I was about to re-decorate my room and then I decided that I should do some chem tys and then I couldn't concentrate long enough so I decided to do up the decorations but then again, I was bored so here I am, blogging.
Hahaha. I promise I'll get the studying and the room done by tonight. Yes. Even if it means sleeping at 2am. It's becoming a habit and I just remembered I have school bright and early tmr. Shitass
My plan to diss someone has failed completely. Debs, the bible study guy is going for potter TODAY with the other guys. To think that I had planned everything so damn nicely, to accidentally-purposely bump into them and say hi to the cute fart and pretend he wasn't there. What a waste. But I'm still glad that he got jacked by the *C girl. hahahah. "I only wanna do God's work" C'mon debs, on cue, say "awwwwww"
Oh shit. I'm late for Charlie. fuck. Bye

*itchy

I am a very very bored girl who is lacking the very very important motivation to study. I miss Debs already and I can't wait to potter on thursday!
Ulynn, remember my math tutorial on sat. I'll kill you if you forget again. I still can't believe you conveniently brought it home. hmph
Crystle, mosie and bf, I CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY TO ARRIVE.
On the other hand, if sat arrives, it means that another week has passed and by right, I should have finished revising for chem, tys and all. But at the rate I'm going, I think I can only have time to read what's in the notes and have absolutely no time to do the tys. I need to speed up and not day dream. Thursday and saturday WILL come. Shit. I'm getting grouchy again.
-Should I or should I not?-

*Late night bitching till wee hours will simply make a girl's day

This sucks. The damn construction sites nearby are causing mosquitoes to breed in abundance. My sis and I woke up at 5am and managed to kill 9 of them. All in my room. 1 escaped and continued to torment us for the rest of the night. Not as if I don't have enough scars on my legs caused by THEM and the rashes. Fuck it.
Woke up at 12 and started on my studying. Hah. Big joke I swear. I only managed to cover like 2 chapters with little naps in between. I think I'm going for a jog later after I finish blogging. Suddenly, I realise I have a gazillion undone work. Shitshitshitshitshit!!!!!
That's it. I'm jogging(if i can't have flawless legs, I might as well try to tone them up so I wouldn't be having freakin scarred AND fat, wobbly legs), coming home and then continue what I'm supposed to finish for chemistry today, slog like a mad cow and maybe start on the essay thats due on thursday. Yes. Even if it means sacrificing Harry Potter. Honestly, I hate my life big time.

*Psychotic being

Met up with the 5 fingers. Ate alot and somehow, the ambience was totally different. I felt highly pressurised by the company. I guess I wasn't used to not even bitching for consecutively 10 mins.
Anyways, a friend told me about the life of her friend as a SPG. I swear my jaw just dropped. I find it extremely perturbing that someone of our age is already engaging in these kinda activities. I mean, where the hell is her dignity man? Does she find fun in letting white expats screw her all day long? She even said that she gets laid just before her block tests. WTF??? The worse thing being that she blogs down explicit details on her romping experiences. yes. blowjobs, sweaty sex, how men hook her up even in her school uniform in the MRT, telling strangers that try to have a one night stand with her that she's a whore and doesn't indulge in long term relationships. Ok. I know you bitches out there are dying to know her blog. Erm.. lets just say I left a hint on my mosie's blog. Go read her tag board. I'm utterly grossed out. She even posted nude pictures on some crap website. Go see her archives. It's linked somewhere. I'm super grossed and I really wonder if her parents know about her indulging in this kinda sick activities. I mean afterall, she gave away her virginity when she was 12 at some camp in M'sia. Ok. Her parents should know cos who the hell stays over night at someone else's place every week. Her teacher called her parents to inform them about her sexual activities. I'm dead disgusted. Seriously, she must be mental and I feel darn sorry for her.
Only 18 and she's already fucked more than god knows how many men. Posing nude and I heard even trying to be a model for FHM, was thinking of getting a tattoo just in between her belly and her pussy. Erotic for sure but WHAT ON EARTH WAS SHE THINKING MAN????
Oh man.. to think that she comes from a reputable school.

*Serious case of a fuck slut

Just another emotional upheaval. No idea what's going on but I was thinking along the "I might have been a tad bit too harsh and went overboard" line.
Everything just seems so blur. It's like your favourite neoprint kept in the plastic cover for many years and when you eventually take it out to take another look at it, the colours somehow have merged together, forming a smudge. The faces of yourself and your friends have also been distorted, beyond recognition. A bad analogy but it's exactly how I'm feeling now.
Pardon me for the emotional outbursts now and then. I find it hard to express myself in a more proper and ladylike way. ( A thought just came to my mind and it disappeared again. I lost my train of thoughts and have nothing to say now)
Girls, have you all noticed a similar trend between us? Seems like we're all suffering from the same syndrome which I shall now call, "Thekarmaofbitchingtoomuch". Seriously. Nut, Butch-Boy, Girl-Fucker and hardcore paedophile's paedophile. Similar problems, similar emotions, similar hurt( with the exception of ex owner of Butch-Boy. i think). The one thing that we do in common; bitching. Fine. Lets not limit ourselves to just ourselves. Look at the biggest bitch in town. And her michael-jackson counterpart. Suffering from the same problem. Almost anyway. They bitch too! I think it's true. Too much coincidence with everything makes my stand even more justifiable. I'm scared. Maybe we shouldn't bitch as much. Like take a break or something. The lives of those who seldom bitch seems more comfortable. Less setbacks, more hair, and bastardised cases are almost zilch!
I have no idea why that thought came to my mind. It's like a bad omen, a warning sign to all of us. Before we all turn out to become friendless and no hardcore bitching partners are available. It's just as good as living in hellhole alone. And everyone bitches about you. Scary thought eh? It much just be for real.

*Fancy my imagination

ok. whatever abt the second post. I just have to say this. I REALLY(x infinity) cannot tolerate it when people just have to ACT so damn bloody intellectual when everyone knows the obvious truth. Stupidity runs in the blood. So much so that even the feline creature was born dumb. Don't bother cracking your head trying to figure out what I'm saying cos if you don't, then most prob you aren't included in this bitching. If you suspect that I'm talking about you, then I most probably am. No wait. Some people take like 5 months before noticing a change in situtations/environments. Nonono. It'll take awhile before the imbecile brain processes. And yes. I like to use BIG WORDS. Stupid would perfectly fit the sentence but I thought imbecile was more appropriate. Afterall, what are you talking about? I speak this way ALL THE TIME. x)
Some people just tries way too hard to fit in. It's like so fuckin fake?! Everyone thinks you're gross. And it's obvious that not everyone is your friend you know. Sadly, some people just can't see it. They're just too hmm.. how should I put it. Fine. I'll be frank. Wannabe, self-absorbed, thinking that the whole world revolves around them and the circle of like what? Less that 5 real friends? Not to mention, oblivious to everything and anything. Not sure if self denial is the word.
Crystle, you are right. Its come to the point of no return. I can find fault with almost every thing I see.

*its just too bad that you can't fit into it. Hahhahaha

Great day with the girls. I'm happy, full and contented. It was like a strictly NO-BITCHING-OR-EVEN-MENTIONING-ABOUT-BOYS day. It rocked. We ate and we bitched about every girl under the sun, walked around, ate some more, and finally settled at Swensen's and had Earthquake with bananas. It was good cos there was even more bitching! Hahahha. The show kinda sucked. Bf said it was an ultra low budget film. She claimed that she could see the shadow casting of the huge mic that they use to capture the actors' voices. x)
Ok. I'm dead tired and my rashes are acting up again. I suspect I'm allergic to eggs and many many more. Replying tags.
Mosielohsee: I will remove the pic soon. As soon as people finish enjoying what they see. Love you
Cousin: Told ya. He's a big bastard. Ok. Both are big bastards for diff reasons. But I still think that hung lookalike is a bigger and more irritating bastard. I'm fine. Don't worry about me. I'll see you at granny's on sunday yeah?
En: I've been enjoying the holidays so far and so extreme that I haven't actually started mugging. And I'm kinda scared now. Your exams are over right? Lucky duck. I can so imagine u telling me that you went through this exact same shit 2 years back. hahhaa. you take care too!

Debs, I love you. You're my sweetest angel, the one and only who can bitch abt that fucker without making me feel stupid for ever liking him. x)
And Deb's right. She said this to me. " No point brooding over a swollen ball who can't wait to get his load off on a girl."
Things have never sounded this good! So much for wasting my time and effort when at the end of the day, proves to be futile. Oh well. One has to make a huge mistake before the learning process can take place.
I woke up at 550am, ended a long day of continuous work at 4pm and it's gonna start again at 8pm. I'm uber tired.

*All these are making me hallucinate

I just need to get this off my chest cos I'm pissed. Pls do not go on reading if you are already feeling pissed.

To that sonofabitch who made me live life in hell for god knows how long:
There's one fuckin thing that I don't think I'll ever understand; why did I ever get myself into this mess...
There's something certain though, that is whatever you say or do, even the slightest action from you, is beginning to get on my nerves. I used to be able to tolerate that nonsense of yours. But now, it's making me cringe.
Doubt you're even aware of the symptoms anyway. You suck. Seriously. That happy-go-lucky attitude of yours is making me feel sick! I wish I could slap that fuckin grin off that face of yours.
If I were to list what I hate about you, you'll become the number 1 on my HATE list. Lemme quote a few- you're sick, psycho, perverse, irresponsible, girl-fuckin bastard, insensitive, stupid. The list goes on and on. You never made me feel special, you never treated me like how a girl was supposed to be treated. All I was to you was just a beck and call, your life-line when you were in trouble and needed help asap, your substitute for some bitch. Right?! No. You shut the fuck up. It was never my fault. Push the blame to yourself.
This feels so good. I haven't gotten my sweet revenge. May you burn in hell; together with your corrupted lies and filthy thoughts. I'm gonna cut the thread that has been leashing me to your little finger for the past 13 months. Goodbye