You know, it doesn't really matter anymore if he cares or not. A little slow but nonetheless, I know there are my darlings that'll always be there for me, rain or shine. I aint giving two hoots about him anymore. Gfs are always the better choice. Trust me.

*x)

Lunch buffet for Ianna's 1 mth was extremely filling. I'm dying. But I'm glad I met up with my dearest ching after not seeing each other for an eternity. Girly, *muacks*. Swimming's on yah? I must say my little niece has learnt the art of "giving face". She slept peacefully throughout the entire 2+ hours without howling, screaming or crying. And when she reached home, the nonsense started. I told my sis that the kiddo was giving her face. Hahaha. She's THE only kiddo that I love. For now. x) Too bad she's going back to her own home since the confinement period's over. I guess I'll miss seeing her, carrying her and even attempting to talk to her. Oh. Plus hearing her cry. -I can hear my mom fussing over the baby downstairs now. Typical grandma-
I just have to say this. I love (by alphabetical order) bf, crystle, fi, mosielohsee and steffie.

*The magical power of love can be seen by the bitchy but still ever-loving AFs.

Its the start of the holidays and my schedules are supposed to be packed with tuitions and studying. Instead, I'm meeting veron on monday to settle some stuffs, going to the chinese doctor(hopefully) to find a cure for my persistent skin disease. urgh. Tues will be a date with my dearest lyn, wednesday is currently free, thurs and fri are the so called backtoschool days. SUCKS! Oh. AFs, i just spoke to crystle and we're dying to watch confessions of a teenage drama queen on friday. We do not wish to end up in a situation like 50 first dates. No. All in favour, say AYE AYE. Whatever, you don't have a choice. We're gonna watch! I'll be in hippy uniform cos I've got food chem lect early in the morning. Okokokokok? ok bf? ok mosielohsee? ok steffie? ok fi??? OK!
I hope all these outings and whatsnot will end by this week. I've got 3 weeks left to cover 3 subjects. That's totally not enough time to read through the notes, understand, memorise and to practice the tys. I MUST STUDY HARDER!!!
Oh. Ulynn, you ought to watch Moody's Point on Nickelodeon. Moody's dad lost his BIG toe. Maybe you should feel relieve that its your mini toe NAIL. x) The Man said it'll grow back anyway. Give it some tlc. You know, soak in the prim-rose oil, dab on some baby powder and give it a little kiss. hahahhah..
I'm gonna finish up my chem tutorial. This is a good start. Right?

This is the interesting conversation that goes on b/w debs and I.
deb: HI! *waves frantically* I will try and solve your firewall thingy. Booboohead. Wait till you hear what's my next plan for ^cheenapok!
me: debsss... tell me the plan! plsssssss telll meeeeeeeeeee
deb: It's explicit and not really a plan. But here goes, how about stuffing two dildos up her nostrils so she gets fucked up at every single hole??? Good idea?
me: You left out the mouth and the ears and the arse hole and the pee pee hole! debs, we'll go broke getting so many dildos! lets rob hse of condoms ok?

^ names shall not be protected. Cheenapok=Anniethefucker


*I don't wanna wake up

SHREK ROCKS!!!
Yupyupyup! Shrek totally rocks. Everything was so cute and lovable. EXCEPT Puss in the boots. I will NEVER like cats. Donkey, shrek, pinochio, the ugly dragon and her cute babies!!!( they look like mutated puppies. had a donkey head and a dragon body) hahahahah... Totally rushed around the whole school after the cursed gp paper which i'm bound to fail again. But let's not go into that. I'm in a good mood today. The bus ride down to PS was hilarious with siao and I singing our lungs out. Clara said for every syllable that I sing, I'll shorten her life by 1 year. So lets see.. Mosie, I've known you for 1 year plus and I think I've sung more than 65798498 syllables. Are you even HUMAN to live till today? hahaha. I can so imagine u doing that hand action-intellectual talk. -rolls eyes-
Aye aye aye.. talking about shrek, I can't help but notice the little variations done in the show. Backdrops showed shops with Versace's imitation called versace-smth and there's A|A. Even cartoons are portraying materialism!!! What's wrong with the world today??? Nonetheless, shrek deserves my utmost respect. Was just telling crystle that some fat slob can go star as shrek's double. Muahahahha
I've found manymany people to watch my bimbotic shows with me! Hurray!
And and and.. you people will never believe this. I went shopping for BABY clothes. Hahaha.. actually, clara was doing most of the choosing until crystle got all snappy saying that she needed to rush home to watch the evil chinese drama serial. I then began to panic and went thru kiddo shops one after another trying to find the least nyak baby clothing. Thank god my sister loves it. So thanks to clara loh! She found the Carter's one esp cute! Not forgetting crystle, my partnerincrime for hating kids! We ROCK! x)
Damn sian without msn. No one's at home anyway. Everyone's at rouge having a ball of a fun time. I'm jealous. Arghhhhhhh
Ps: You don't need to know this but I just had to blog it down anyway. I had massive diarrhoea this morning in school and was almost late for the exam. Coincidentally, steffie was having the same prob as I. We were both groaning in agony after bumping into each other in the foyer. It was like this.
me:" fuck sia. I just lao-saied!"
steffie:"YA!! Me too!"
me:"no shit. I just came out from the toilet upstairs..."
steffie:"me too!!!!"
me"hahhahaha.. i sat on the toilet seat for 20 mins and realised i had no toilet paper with me."
steffie:" oh.. my cubicle had plenty"
me:" oh... anw, i made ulynn bring me loads of them.. damn scared the people outside can smell.. den so paiseh"
steffie:" ya lor...can u imagine if the people outside were like, "fuck man! damn smelly can????". I think I'll just hide inside and not come out"
me" YA!!! totally embarrassing."
tricia:" eh siao, but i know you lor.. you will be the first to say that kinda thing"
-silence-
me,steffie,tricia:"MUAhAHHAHHAHAHAH"

ok. that's the shit talk. I'm outta here

*Exam stress

Fi just posted up the photos that I've been dying to see. Go check it out. Explicit contents. Be warned. *Fi, siao, bf- hahahhaha. i love that pic* Pics 41-44
Its a day off from school. Woke up around elevenish, lazed ard, and haven't quite gotten there to read the notes. I'm gonna fail. AGAIN. It's scary. I even had diarrhoea twice today. It's sucha bad timing for everything. School system sucks. I hope to meet crystle for shreking tmr. Seems like we're the only two dumbfools who adores that greenish monster. Then there's Harry Potter, Confessions of a teenage drama queen, The day after tomorrow. Someone please tell me you wanna watch that too! I haven't gotten the courage to watch a movie by myself...
Yesterday during gp, we were made to discuss an article on self inspiration. My group was assigned the task ; to believe in myself . I wasn't bothered with the task and was disturbing melvin till my dear shouted. " EH! Check this out! It says that prolonged orgy is part of self believing!" hahahahaha.. it might not sound funny here but you should really read the article. The whole passage was drooning on and on abt inspirational stuff and then the orgy thing appeared. It was hilarious i swear!!! x)
Gp tmr. I. AM. FREAKED. OUT! Has anyone been noticing that the bulk of year 2s have been seriously mugging for the mid years? Everyday, the library is packed with year 2s, and there's always the usual people who mugs like crazy at home and slack in school, then there're cases like me, who studies consistently but results aint showing. The latter doesn't sound coherent but the gist is that everyone's already mugging and I'm still not studying hard enough. Shit. I smell serious trouble already...

*Where's my fairy godma?

Just a thought, could things get any worse for me? I mean with a runny nose just before gp paper on fri, a majorly fucked up result from SAT, teachers making comments like " E'an, I expected you to do much better than this..." and of course, the persisting problem that the fucker is giving me 24/7. It feels like I'm waiting for Doom's Day. I wish it comes tomorrow though. Cos I seriously can't take this shit no more

*Do you smell rust; the smell of fresh bloody gushing out from a wound?

I'm becoming more of a slob. Those who know me well enough, lemme just say this. I haven't been studying or opening any of my books since thursday night. Shocked? Yes. Me too. I had intended to get down to studying for the weekly econs test which is due tmr, but, no... I woke up late, read the papers, ate lunch, played with the kiddo, read Female( which btw is really good. esp this month's. Tons and tons of sex stuff, orgy.. yada yada. You get the gist), read *17, went back to sleep and now i'm on the comp. Going to granny's soon. So yeah. Another wasted day. I'm totally fucked. With exams drawing closer each day, and I'm still living life like I've just gotten my Honours degree.??!! Shan't continue cos this is freakin me out.
Just some thoughts that came to my mind while reminiscing in the shower-
Am I just his insignificant friend now? I'm beginning to notice the cracks and flaws in the friendship that I thought was seemingly perfect. I guess I should have known when avoidence came into the picture months back. Too bad for me cos I'm starting to feel the aftermath of this. This totally sucks! I can't just dismiss
the issue either. I need to talk. It's gonna be a monologue with myself. I'm gonna sound crazy but I can't help it. He never agrees to talk things out anyway.
Ok girls, I have this major list of movies I wanna watch. I can't believe they didn't spare a thought for JC ppl by airing these bimbotic shows that mosielohsee, crystle, bf and I like to watch, IN JUNE. damnit. I need movies. We'll spend the first week ok june on it ok girls?! *BEEG HUG* YOU TOO DEBS!

*Off

Whole day started like crap yesterday. The sun was so hot yesterday that it made my already present headache, even worse. Don't blame me for not talking or pissing yesterday. Just wasn't in the mood. The whole track event was wasted and thank god my classmates were understanding enough when I said I wanted to back out cos of the throbbing going on in my skull. Lucky for me. Cos those who played suffered from deep cuts ard their ankle area. Not like I don't have enough scars on my legs. The butchbitch already made some nasty comments about the damn legs! Whatever.
Mosie and I left for the swimming events and there, everything became better. The headache disappeared. My eyes had a well deserved treat. So did mosie's. Although I couldn't zoom focal point closer. *sorry mo! *sheepish grin* As for me, two words : Fantabulousy Wonderful Many thanks to firstly, Steffie's camera that made everything possible. -hugs- and sorry to siao for using up the battery. I'll buy you gummies soon! Secondly, my photographer/actress/giggling partner/bitcher/craptalking/twerp aka mosielohsee, I LOVE YOU! and THAT pic. You know, THE one and also the one I took with you of course!
LL-j, I went to the damn sports carnival with a motive, and I left accomplishing the motive. x)
It was a total mad-rush after the thing. I was late. VERY VERY LATE to meet crystle. But nonetheless, it was a good day. I bought a top from Mango, she bought smth from there and Sisley and many many more things, and when clara came, she insisted she had to buy smth so we ended up walking back to FEP where she got the damn lovely butterfly earings.
OH YAH NESS, you ought to check out that shop at far east plaza level one. It's the one beside Long John's. I swear, they have TONS of butterfly earings. Very very pretty! Thought you might like them.
Ok, a little divertion there but anyway, to conclude the whole thing, 3 very happy girls left for home with big grins on their faces. That's cos we all bought something and entertained each other with the inhale when we passed by Hyatt. hahahha. Not alot of bitching but it was still enjoyable with each other's company. I love my AFs.

*"It's all gravy"-> clara and crystle, your cue to laugh

Ok, I'm helping a good friend by doing a publicity here.
GO GET *17 AND VOTE FOR VANESSA AND CHARMAINE FOR THE CLEAN AND CLEAR BESTFRIENDS CONTEST!
Ness, hope that made you smile. I promise I'll go get the mag tmr and send the vote in. x)
Sports Carnival tmr. Eat my shite pls. I totally dread these kinda of events. Meaningless, unhappening, totally unorganised, cheesy games with their so called "innovative" names, freaks EVERYWHERE. The damn BP's trying to act all cool by not appearing in his long white robe. Gimme a break!!! I HATE SPORTS CARNIVAL IN CJC
The cheerleading groups are just making a fool outta themselves. Especially when the damn frog eyes is prancing around in the short skirt when her thighs are twice my size (trust me. that's huge), doing those kawaiineh actions accompanied with verses like " I'm sexy and I'm cute" -rolls eyes- Totally cmi and revolting. Bf, vanessa and I were laughing ourselves silly just looking at her class trying so hard to be CHEERLEADERS. I swear, you guys ought to have been THERE. Poor robbie. We sent him down to the library to clear up our mess. He missed the highlite. hur hur
Tmr, I'll just be slacking at one corner, bitching, blasting music into my ears since the school NEVER plays good music. And then wait for the time to come and I'll action into amoeba football. Didn't I just say the names were stupid?!
Swan, if you're reading this, I'm proud to say that I survived the ordeal of the damn tests today without you! Hahaha. I didn't attempt to move my eyes away from my papers!!! That's cos the ppl ard me were like. you know la huh.. x) Reaction Kinetics sucks though. No time to finish again. I'll barely scrape thru. Oh well. I hope you're feeling better and yup. I'll screw the living daylights outta your self-centred, egotistical, trying to be cool classmates. THEY SUCK

*Slap me toy

NO MORE MASS PE FOR ME, EVER!!!
I finally cleared the stupid jump after a thousand tries. Nonetheless, I cleared it. That's all that matters. I think the entire AF passed their napha test so thats double yay! x) That totally means i end like 230 on mondays instead of the gruelling 350. YAY!!!!
Caught Troy yesterday. I personally thought that it wasn't worth 5 bites ( as quoted by jean danker). The story was too dreary and probably, I was dead tired after rushing through my 5 stations. Nonetheless, its something apart from my all time fav, dumb-blond, cheap thrill and nobrainer kinda show.
That's one show down and a zillion more to go. Plus my hitler vcd that I still haven't watched. So little time, so many movies! I honestly feel like taking a break from school on friday. It's just the dumb sports carnival anyway right? Even if I go, its just to check out the DP and to participate in the amoeba football nonsense. Goddamnit! Why did my stupid class ballot for such a stupid game?? The eco-challenge thing sounds more fun! Ok.. at least we didnt get the dumbass cheerleading crap. hur hur hur..
My time is up. There's the sticky 3-D trigo tutorial to complete, a thousand notes to read up for chemistry and econs, and the tests on thursday to study for. Honestly, I'm freaked out.

*Entice me

Flooble chatterbox is currently down so I have to resort to blogging to reply the tags.

Crystle: Go check out the nipple's blog. hur hur hur. I bet the nipple said that to hopefully, gain back the friendship. Yuck yuck yuck!!!

Debs: I end early on wed but I have 2 tests on thursday. How about thursday or fri? I end at 110 on thurs and fri is stupid sports carnival. I think I'm free after that. Remember, starbucks is banning ppl from studying there. So if we brought the laptop over, they'd prob accuse us of studying or doing work there. Arsewipes! Anw, charlie sucks. Who cares if he's rich. He talks to disgusting freakos from acjc( they're in the same league)I almost died! See la! Sampson's gone home. How to check him out now???? You better ring me up soon ok debs. I miss our bitching already! Retail therapy soon??

Bf: you're damn slow. The speaker thing is like HOW LONG AGO???? That proves one thing. A funky class doesn't necessarily mean that you do funky things before I do. Hahaha.. Anw, can't wait to see you in new specs. Apparently, someone is trying to fit in. I'll tell you on monday personally. Afterall, the blog isn't safe anymore. x) loveyoubf!

Mosie: I just had to include you in though I have nothing to say. Ok. I just thought of a valid reason. Just in case you get jealous cos I included bf and not you. Anyhow, nipples really talks big. I can't stand the way she tries to brag about everything and anything. Its like, "wow! look at me. I've been there and done that! have you??"
*groans* And yes. I just HAD to live up to my own reputation of being a biatch. So quoting her isn't something new!

LL-j: Its ok actually. I can loan the eye-candy to you. I have his primary school pic. Wanna trade pics?? You gimme *his and I'll photo copy the other one. x)

Ok. That's it. Outta here

*Peeling the scabs off my wounded heart

Econs test was like uber bad. I didn't study enough for it. But even then, the paper was tough. Even Malcolm said so. Whatever..-rolls eyes- I've always anticipated for this day to come. Just waiting to see how badly I'd perform during the A levels.
Anyhow, went down to town with the swan to get some stuffs. Totally burned a huge hole in my savings account. I lost count of the number of times I whipped out the atm card for the cashier. Fuckit. I hope that bitch appreciates what we're doing for her. *you, bitch! Yes you bitch. There's only one person whom I address bitch so dearly. It's you. Better plaster a smile on your face when you see the thing! x)
Met clara and crystle on the way. We said "hi" and "bye" 3 times. It was hilarious. Met and then left cos they had to go get lunch and we carried on, on our shopping escapade. Met again and then said bye cos mosie had to get her brows done. Met again for the last time and then walked ard. Bitched alot. ( Some people are just so *peace-action ). LL-j called to tell me she saw my eye-candy since the end of time. I was at the other end of town. Double fuckit.
Well well, all's not lost. I got myself the white multi purpose pouch with the cherry on it. I LOVE IT. Apparently, the thing caught my sis's eyes too cos when I showed her, she was like, omg. $13.90???? I was like, how do you know.. Ah........ we can now share the thing. Perhaps I should ask her to pay me half cos we're SHARING? And especially more so cos my bank account is leaking and will soon suffer a payment deficit? I need inflow. Not outflow. I need to appreciate the value in my bank so purchases would be cheaper. Haha.. nonsensical shit.
I need the msn back. Like NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!! I need to sacrifice the first week of the hols to watch all the damn movies.
1. The Day After Tomorrow
2. Shrek 2
3. Troy
4. Harry Potter- The Prisoner of Askaban
and whoever is going to M'sia, can you help me get the above vcds together with 50 first dates and Win a date with Tad Hamilton. It's my typical no-brainer, girly, dumb blond, chic flick kinda show. LL-j. PLEASE??????
And oh. Before I forget. I highly suspect that some people's english isn't as good as it seems. Using sophisticated words doesn't mean shit. You can't even string a simple sentence together. Take for example.
" This is -your name- here."
Well, that's just stupid. You either say, " This is -your name-" or " -your name- here"
Now we all know the truth. Heh heh.
Cut all that literary shit out. You're not any better.

*Jeopardised

I'm bored you see....


Ever date someone younger than you?
No

Someone Older:
No

Ever been drunk:
i dont drink.

Been in love:
Ya duh.

Loved someone who you knew you couldn't have:
Yeah

Gotten in a car accident:
No. And I hope it stays that way.

Broken a bone:
No.

Had your heart broken:
Plenty of times.

Cheated on someone:
I wouldn't consider it "cheating".

Been cheated on:
YES! I'm still feeling pretty sore about it.

Last time you said I love you to someone:
Oh gosh. I say "I love you" to my mosie and bf EVERYDAY. But if you mean to that special special someone, it was 24th July, 2003.

Last time you cried:
On Sunday, it was physical crying. But my heart cries like almost everyday.

Last time you laughed:
Few hours ago when bf told me smth funny.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years:
Oh man.. I don't know. I'll be 28 by then. Hopefully working and engaged?

What age do you see yourself married at?
27

Describe your dream wedding:
Not in Singapore. Preferably in Maldives. You said DREAM right?
White soft sand, clear sea water. Basically a beach wedding.

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Yup. One teddy bear I owned since 3yrs old, mini Eeyore, white tiger, Grumpy Bear, Sylvester the cat, Tigger and a stuffed pillow from Happy House

If you could dye your hair one color what would it be?
Sheesh. My hair is already damaged from the dying. It's a horrible shade of copper-red now?! No more dying of hair anytime soon.

Have you ever been skinny-dipping:
heh heh....

Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork?
None. I eat with my mouth. Was that supposed to be a trick question?

Would you rather give or receive?
Both

How many homes have you lived in?
1

Do you play any instruments?
The piano. recorder? hahaha

One pillow or two?
One for sleeping, another mini one for hugging

Do you get along with your parents?
NO WAY

Do you drive?
I hope to right after my A's

What kind of car do you have?
-

Whats your fav. color?
Too many to select just one.

Do you work?
I used to, during the hols. Yucky experience. *nudges bf*

Whats your favorite food:
No preference if it consists of only chicken, fish or veg. I do not eat pork, beef, or any exotic food.

Do you have braces:
Used to have them.

How many guys/girls have you kissed:
Girls, hahaha.. plenty. I kiss my gfs all the time. But only 1 guy.

When was the last time you went on a date:
That was last last thursday. Not sure if it was considered a date. Oh well

Have you ever got in serious trouble?
That's subjective. I think once, in sec 1 when the few of us got caught skipping pe. That was kinda major. Principle and all. x)

Why is the sky blue:
Ask God

Who was your first crush:
Some guy in my p1 class

When you meet a person of your preferred sex, you first notice their:
Face. Yes. I'm superficial. Face and then personality.

I like this new layout from blogger. Somehow, it seems more.... exciting. haha.. Anyhow, everyone seems to be bitching about the weather and you've guessed it. So am I. The weather is becoming more and more unbearable. On monday, I was melting under the sweltering heat. Sitting under the fan which was spinning at full speed didn't help cos it was perpetually blowing hot air. Thank god the heat didn't spoil the PE department's logical thinking skills. I'd just die of heat stroke if they made me run my 2.4 there and then. Did the 5 stations instead. Damnit. I'm gonna have to retake them again cos I can't jump. And I'm not afraid to deny that fact. 2 more cm and I'll clear that minimum D grade. I've checked my secondary sch's record. I think my personal best was a 168cm in sec 3. I aspire to clear a minimum of 163cm. *crosses fingers*
Honestly, I am not keen to do mass pe EVER again. How on earth did I manage to do 6 inclined pull ups and clear my shuttle run within the D grade category remains a mystery to me. 16.50 and below for my 2.4 wld free me from the twice weekly torture. No more doing sit ups and jumping jacks at that dirty dusty place. No more lugging towels, soap bottle and facial wash to school. I am determined to clear the damn test with a silver!!!
Okay. Went a little off tangent there. The light drizzle made the weather a little more bearable today. I hope it rains tmr while I'm in school and then the sky clears up when the bell rings at 230pm. x) That reminds me. We're having photo taking for the year book tomorrow. *groans*
-I'm bored. I need you right now.-
Okay. I hear the pile of econs notes screaming out my name. Btw, I need big time help for 3-D trigo. I can't view 3-D stuff!!!

*Running away from the harsh reality of life.

Some people are just way too keen on gaining popularity. To that stupid bitch who's too gutless to put down her name, you just gave yourself away again. *points finger at that bitch* Look at your own tag and tally with MY msg. Did I even state your name? Awww.. you're guilty and your conscience just got back at you. Seriously, stop tagging like you're some american punk. Cos ultimately, you DO NOT have white skin. And pls.. your whole clique just TRIES to slang and honestly, its getting on everyone's nerves. Slangs are like so passe? Hahaha... try harder, losers. If you have the intention of putting me down, making me feel like a sore loser, then sadly, you haven't succeeded a single bit. Come on.. I don't even know you people and vice versa. Do you think I'd be bothered by those childish tags?? You people are too free, scouting ard to read other's blogs. Blogs of people you don't even know. Get a life and try finding your own entertainment. *sniggers*
Mo, crystle, llj, sam, siao, and the entire AFs, don't bother replying to their tags. x) love you guys. *smucks*
*u**** and begratefulubitch, I know you're the same person. Don't bother thinking of innovative nick names. Since they come from you, they're all of the same low life mentality. If you can't even type out the word FUCK, then don't bother telling me to screw myself.

You people must be guilty of what I said. I didnt state your names or classes and since you people can go complain to my friends about what I said, I'm certain that you're guilty. Hur hur.. And also, this happens to be my blog so I shall write what appeases me and not what appeals to your eyes. Losers. Complain complain complain... Girls LOVE to complain and bitch no doubt. But words do travel. Bet you regretted telling my friend, didn't you?? x) Think before you speak, my dears

*Big L