-Emotional turbulence-
Everyone seems to be pointing their fingers towards me. I'm sick and tired of my parents defending for her instead of their own daughter. I hate the fact that my parents and my sister(especially my sister, whom I thought understood me the most) blamed me for being over sensitive.
"You are too sensitive. She didnt mean it that way. She just wanted to share her happiness with you. You shldn take it that way"
My mom had to rub it in. She has always been like that, speakin up for others instead of backing up her own daughter. wtf is wrong with her???? she said that i'm just jealous of her. I get jealous of her whenever she does well but she doesnt have that kinda feeling towards me when I do better. Right fuck. Since when have i ever aced her? My mother speaks as if she knows me better than her. She speaks like that cos in her eyes, she's an angel. She's the angel brought into my life.
I hate to put on a pretence. You darlings know me. I'm on the brink of shouting at my mother again. Clara, trish,angela and crystle... I need you guys so fuckin badly now!!!!!!!! I need a reassuring hug that this shit will be over soon.. It never seems to be the case! I need my sexy who promised that he'll lend me his shoulder to cry on... why isn't anyone here when I fuckin need them the most?!
Clara and trish, sorry I couldn't entertain u guys over the phone yesterday. I was so effing pissed that i cried myself to sleep. The bad luck never seems to come to a stop. In fact, its like a truckload full of garbage that keeps piling higher and higher. That shit about " it'll be over soon" isnt true. When's soon? When i'm dead?

*Dead soon i hope