Bad luck streak is back. I'll not go on to mention abt the DP since i already told all my gfs the details. Thinking back, its kinda superficial and i seriously am giving up... he's just not right.
Is it just me or would anyone of you out there, get irritated when you have to find out stuffs from a mutual friend, when the person is actually damn close to you? To me, its damn embarrassing. Yah.. minor stuffs like that can amount up to a whole lot of shit. I conclude that these few years of friendship were just lies. I agree that we had many happy memories together but seriously, i dont need this kinda crap from her. Just looking at the way she withdraws herself outta normal social activities is enough to worry me. I try my best to help her out of her extremely introvert self but what i get in return is a blunt, "stop messing up my life". See my point? I'm not asking for sympathy. I dont need shit sympathy from anyone. I already pity myself enough.
I dont expect her to pour out her sorrows or bare her soul to me cos i know its not her style. But it seems to me that this "close" friendship is nothing but a monologue. Updates abt guys, probs of my own and interesting gossips are always from me. I havent heard shit from her, abt her own probs, let alone, her family. Its like a stranger that i've known for many years. Now i'm beginning to wonder, if she really paid attention to what i said in the past. Fuckin facade she's been putting on these few years and it only hit me hard, knowing the truth just yesterday.

*Wipe that pretence off your face