Commencement Ceremony was utterly time consuming. We shld have missed econs lect or smth instead of chem tutorial. At least I learn smth outta every lesson, unlike econs. Which is more like a game of luck. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I dont.
Brief elaboration abt the commencement. Besides boring, I had to sit thru abt 1 grueling hour, listening to this absolutely cmi sji boy, trying to flirt with Liwen. I bet he's one of those boys who had been deprived of girls for 10 years... He actually asked Liwen this question. " Can you pull me up?" What an absolute turn off. I hope she was just entertaining him cos I get this feeling that she's also annoyed with him. Hahaha.. To top it off, he just HAD to touch her shoulders everytime he tried to speak. Amazingly, I wasn't the only one. Ulynn saw it too. Both of us agree he'll never make it in life. x)
Sad thing being, he's in my junior class... doubly gross.. at least there's the doe eyed Liwen... I was just staring at her eye lashes... Damn pretty. Legs, not too bad. Ah... for that, I chose to pin her collar pin on her. She's kinda sweet la.. polite.. said thank you ma... My bitching instinct totally surfaced after seeing Lucy Lee catching her class girls for strings. So Liwen and I had a mini bitching session. I bet the loser guy was evesdropping. Steffie, i never knew your teacher was so strict. Is she getting a pay rise for meeting a quota? What a bitch. She started targeting Ulynn's class today!!! I'm sure my class's bound to get it soon.
Today was boring. Signed myself up for GP remedials. For what? I dunno. I only realised that its so unconstructive. I think my class is better off learning GP on our own. 'Least we don't have to get mad everytime she comes in. Okay girls, I FINALLY got caught for my skirt. Think clara and bf saw it. Hahaha... She didn't say anything abt altering or whatsoever. Just said, " E'an.. your skirt's a little short eh? And your socks. I've heard about them." Errr.. thanks.. never knew my socks were that famous.-rolls eyes-
I hope I dont get mrs toh for chem tutorial cos chiam said t30 and t31 might be combining and yeah... you know the rest. Ulynn, i hate her to the core. She can't teach. And i'm not giving her the chance to prove me wrong. I'll just beg chiam to lemme sit in if i unfortunately get her... 'cmon... you know she sucks deep down inside.. and i have this thing abt teachers with horrid dress sense. Look at my HT... urgh
Wen!!!! COOKIE MONSTER :) More of it to come tmr... and i'll be count dracula. hahah... United states of SHING... lol

*Shat

OH GOD, SAVE ME!!!
There seems to be never ending amount of stretch marks on my thighs. This new ones that i discovered are really gross. Looks like your skin's been slit open. Fuck. I'm gonna earn big bucks and go for major skin grafting and whatsoever to remove the 68751465 number of scars and the stretch marks. Double Eww.
Damn the mosquito that's been flying in my face. Fuck you! You're dead meat as soon i as i finish blogging.
Saw a pretty sight. Really pretty. So pretty that i'm still smiling as i'm typing. No one beats the cutesyness of your face. Like i said, you're still my favourite... and will always be.. hur hur...
Just a thought that came to my mind.. Ulynn, maybe they should allow us to do mass pe in bikinis... x) Before any of you think that I'm trying to flaunt my body to the guys, you've got it all wrong.. Bad ppl!!! Just some conversation that ulynn and i were having while out in the scorching hot sun. Position was all great... I really wouldn't mind lying there the whole day. Ahhhh... This is to reaffirm that too much jumping and 9 rounds of jogging definitely helps in my bowel movement. Friday's shitting day for me.
Oh yeah... this was something i heard when a group of ppl were having a discussion on jc parties. they were oblivious to the fact that i'm a cjcian. The indian mama who thinks she's queen said this.
" Oh man... cj parties are like a live porn show." -no comments-
At least there's the Sevens to look forward to when the weekend comes.. No more time spent on mugging on my tutorials. Weirdly enough, i feel good. Finished my math tutorial, written a piece of essay which i feel is incoherent( but i really put in my best effort), started on my NMR tutorial... ah... bliss bliss.. I'm gonna read up on econs. Then this weekend would have been the most fruitful one since 2004 began. Hah..
Fuck the mosquito. I've 7 bites altogether. Seriously, YOU ARE DEAD MOSSY!!!
Btw, dearie, if you're reading this... I can't stand liars. They ought to burn in hell and i heard what she really feels.. Quote, unquote, I live a really boring life. I know I have no life but I'm happy with it...
And in front of me, she's constantly lamenting about how she HATES her life. I wont be giving her the benefit of the doubt cos she wouldn't lie to anyone else, but me. Reasons? You should know. You told me this since eons ago. Didnt reply to yr sms cos I've already busted my sms for the month. 700. I think I'm gonna burn the bill when it comes. Uh oh...

*As Shaun says, FOAD

Bad luck streak is back. I'll not go on to mention abt the DP since i already told all my gfs the details. Thinking back, its kinda superficial and i seriously am giving up... he's just not right.
Is it just me or would anyone of you out there, get irritated when you have to find out stuffs from a mutual friend, when the person is actually damn close to you? To me, its damn embarrassing. Yah.. minor stuffs like that can amount up to a whole lot of shit. I conclude that these few years of friendship were just lies. I agree that we had many happy memories together but seriously, i dont need this kinda crap from her. Just looking at the way she withdraws herself outta normal social activities is enough to worry me. I try my best to help her out of her extremely introvert self but what i get in return is a blunt, "stop messing up my life". See my point? I'm not asking for sympathy. I dont need shit sympathy from anyone. I already pity myself enough.
I dont expect her to pour out her sorrows or bare her soul to me cos i know its not her style. But it seems to me that this "close" friendship is nothing but a monologue. Updates abt guys, probs of my own and interesting gossips are always from me. I havent heard shit from her, abt her own probs, let alone, her family. Its like a stranger that i've known for many years. Now i'm beginning to wonder, if she really paid attention to what i said in the past. Fuckin facade she's been putting on these few years and it only hit me hard, knowing the truth just yesterday.

*Wipe that pretence off your face

A pleasant day on the whole, though i failed the damn gp. *gasp* yup... i've gotta do smth abt it before i don't get a full A level cert. I'm still kinda suffering in shock. It was a deprovement of 3 grades, plus I have never come close to failing gp till recently... What surprises me was that the people who ARE supposed to do well have failed and those who are likely to fail, have mysteriously gotten quite good marks. This is not so much of complacency or hard workingness. I still don't believe that one's gp grades can improve within 3 months. Hah. Even the bitch was shocked.
Apparently, everyone was being dissed off by the nyak queen and her partner in crime. I'm the only one who can still talk to her PIC without getting irritated. hur hur. I have to admit though, that our tolerance level has reached the max when both were making a din during math tutorial, whining,shouting and begging CBB to let them off at 210 when lessons end at 230. Totally oblivious that there were some ppl who were still working on their tutorials. Wenqi, hahhaha... sorry that i sniggered. It was damn funny the way you retaliated and then Jas started showing attitude. Those 2 ought to learn how to read body languages. "KAWAI-NE!!!" -rolls eyes-
Gp lessons should be like today everyday, that way, i won't sleep. It was an intriguing topic today, on the removal of mother tongue for uni entry criterier. Basically, 2 ppl are supposed to pick smth from the papers and bring it to class for discussion... More interaction is good cos i have tons of thing to say, just like today. Which reminds me, i have to do a presentation about the war in Afghanistan and my group hasn't even starting searching for background info. It'll be fun, learning all about the wars.. unfortunately, nyak queen's in my group and i so have this feeling that she is gonna shove all the work to xavier and i. Bitch. Typical of her. Everyday in class will be listen-to-nyak queen-ramble-on-and-on-about-her-stupid-japcartoon-show... gimme a break pls? She's a self proclaimed flirt, has a voice close enough to be the most irritating one on earth after Maps. hahaha. Even swanny gave me the URGH look when i told her to sit beside NQ. x)
Bf and mo, i love you!!!! We have to do BIG HUGS soon ok? The impromtu new way of hugging really rocks. Actually, it looks more like some orgy. I like! We're so gonna get caught for lesbianism i swear...

*Outrage of modesty

I think ppl who scored single points and yet wanna appeal back to this shit hole called cjc, obviously have no fuckin brains. Okay, maybe its because of friends but damn it.. you can make new friends in greener pastures right? Imbecile fools.
That lonesome j1 class on my level turns out to be a 4 subber class, consisting of fugly creatures. -cringes- I wldn mind seeing that damn ms cheng if BP wld just reorganise the classrooms such that t20 wld be there... not a mugger t16?! Life's so unfair.. Cutie sji boy has gone to acjc and i highly suspect the barker boys have gone there too. What's left in cj is a crying J.L.. Prob mourning over her inability to go to sajc or acjc.. Typical. Or maybe its because her dearest M.L is stuck in yjc and can't appeal back. Damn the orientations, the new j1s who think they are in control of the damn system here.. Just like what ulynn said, they had mud, sun and fun whilst playing with this HUGE ball in the field, dragon boating.. whereas WE had to do some team building fuck shit in class by building the highest tower with straws and cups. No proper mass dance and before we know it, its back to studying. Not to mention tons of temperature taking.. OH PUH LEASE.. gimme a break la.. seriously, fuck this shit hole. Fuck the person who runs it, fuck the seating arrangement during econs lect, stinkin classroom location i have, my gp teacher and everything that i hate abt cj. My timetable sucks too. When i end early, everyone ends late, vice versa.
Screw you j1s!!!! With 400 ppl taking chem, i bet the admin's gonna screw ard with our chem lects and tutorials... maybe less of lect or smth... damn bro paul who shows attitude.

*Fuck the free world

3 reasons why school SUCKED today:
1. Started pmsing. Badly
2. Everyone ended at 150 and I was stuck in school till 350.
3. Saw milk.

3 reasons why school ROCKED today:
1. Saw the cutie sji boy and 2 DROP DEAD GORGEOUS acs barker guys.( bf and mo: I SAW HIM AND HE WAS *bling bling*)
2. Didn't sleep during gp or econs.
3. Saw milk.

Ok.. aint making any sense. Baked some cookies with bf yesterday and it was a whole lot of fun. For yr info, we baked the thing from scratch.. We did not get the ready made ingredients so yeah.. it was made with TLC!!! Sorry ulynn for the chao da one.. we didnt know the correct temp and as a result, the first batch of cookies were mostly burnt.. Crystle, damn damn damn... u cldn taste my un-yummy, un-delicious cookies... urgh.. are u game for Bak Chor Mee on friday? Er.. that's minced pork noodle.. hahah.. bf and i are having this major craving for it already... so maybe we can make that a AF escapade?! I end uber early. like 110!!!! woohooo.. haven't had a 110 day every since 1st 3 mths!! Tag on my board or smth... I have to get that food in my mouth.
Oh yeah... My econs group finally has ms giam.. so its mrs kuah and her... i think there's a tinge of hope for my econs.. my grades are bloody pathetic. I failed every single section expt mcq. yup. that's a 45/100. E. Weirdly enough, its the exact same mark and grade i had for promos. And overall, it was a A C E again.... fiiiiii.. i need help in econs.. anyone?

*My past is back to haunt me

These are the wonderful extreme makeovers that my dearest darling did. Aint she prettier than before? Awww... I love debs

Everything's totally G R E A T today...
1) Met up with Debs
2) Gossiped non stop for 6 hours
3) Added another 2 extreme makeovers to my collection
4) Went to have stingrays, poh piah and kang kongs for dinner
5) Received a call from mo saying that i'm being missed. x) ( I love you mo... )
6) Received NO sms from that fat bastard
7) Received sms from fucker

Oh man.. the only draw back was that debs told me smth that wasn't exactly nice.... but i can't please everyone right? Debs, i know he's a damn good catch despite all those shit yuck fucks... but you know aunty A. is still the problem... But it was damn damn good to be gossiping nonstop with you. I already miss you.. and i still wanna do it again. LIKE REAL SOON OK? but u have to collect info and i have to do the same in order to do the marathon like today... haha..

*Bitcheology

This is retarded. My 3rd post for the day.. yup. clearly shows how downright bored i am. All my gfs are down at chinablack drinking till their livers turn crazy... i'm stuck at home. with van or course. my virgin clubber friend. haha
anw, i was reading some blog and she was talking abt mission day. Darn... I really miss mission day a whole lot. basically, everything that had to do with ij. including the times where we got our belts cut, running away from Chan Pui Chan and Suppiah cos of belts/socks, sewing the belts in the canteen during mass spotcheck, singing the damn national anthem again and again cos we were too soft, THE UNIFORM! and mass. Yes mass. Mass used to be so interesting with F. Mic sharing stories with us, singing Spirit Wings and other nice nice hymns and MISSION DAY! argh... Damn it. U other ij peeps can relate to what i'm saying right?
Everything in cj is just so wrong. All of us totally dread mass cos B.P will be there, sianing us with his drooning voice and nonsensical speech. Song sucks, no sharing of interesting stories. No mission day.( What kinda of a mission school is this man). Uniform sucks big time. Who ever said cj is the place where ij girls and sji boys should go to deserves to die. Apparently, the boys said that cj is totally diff from the sji days cos cj simply sucks. And i being an ij girl, beg to differ too. There's only one person that i have in mind to blame. The answer is clear. Brother asswipe Paul fsc. for those you are still planet mars.

*Simple in Virtue, Steadfast in Duty
In Veritate, Et Caritate

To THAT certain blabber mouth bitch, I know who you are. You seriously just get a life ok? I dont need you to relate everything i say on my blog to that fucker aiight? Your stupid pretence isn't gonna hide the fact that you're down right low life... You and your lil friends can just go bury yourself in shit! Seriously, you're just gonna get back all the kinda shit you did to your friends. Karma will get back at you. Just wait and see if you don't believe me. What I can't stand it your cunningness. So now I'm your next target right? Go ahead and try me. You're fighting a losing battle here. I don't know what are those ppl who hang ard you called. I don't think you can really consider them as your REAL friends cos you don't deserve any. Lemme see. You used to have like 2? Of which one already hates you like crap if you hadn't realise?! So now its just you and the other one who hasn't discovered the true you. Happy Friendship... bloody bitch!

HAPPY 9TH MONTH, SAM AND CRYSTLE!
Anyway, I should really stop talking to him over the phone. There's bound to be a surge of emotion after we hang up, that leaves me weak in the knees. Damn it.
Oh well... life sucks.
Btw, my trusty bitching partner since secondary school days have once again awed me with her amazing IT skills. I gave her the picture of the ugliest girl in hong kong and she managed to give her an extreme makeover... literally. Now, she looks even uglier.. how ugly you might ask? Well, lets just say that everyone whom i was talking to on msn yest. made me change the display pic cos they said they'll have nightmares. Even the guys.. lemme name a few ppl. Melvin, Wenqi, Shaun, Daniel, my cousin and bunny mo found it fuckin hilarious, yaosheng said i'm damn bad. The fun's not over yet... This is to teach that bitch a lesson, for making me live in hell for 9 months. Though it wasn't exactly her fault, she had a part to play in the whole thing. So damn you, BITCH! Can anyone teach me how to put up pictures on the blog? So i'll show u the really "pretty" picture... I bet all of you will have a good laugh.. Esp my AF!!! Girls.. I swear its effing funny. TEACH ME SOME ONE!!!!

* *"I shld have been a fucking slut feline" -smirks-

No time for long posts so here's the shout outs, basically to reply those tags.. haha
Crystle: You were right about the person. I still have to go on the promised trip to subway with you, though i dunno when, and to act out his stupid tone. err err err heh. *ilu
Debs: That guy whom i want to tie up in car tyres is that fucker's best friend. erm. not sure if its BEST friend but they're in a clique.. told u, birds of the same feather flock together.. ok wait.. maybe i got that idiom wrong.. but u know what i'm trying to put across right? both are fuckers. but that fat fucker is a worse kinda fucker. So we have to tie him up together with cheena bitch!!! x)
Ness: !!!!!! you do come to my blog!!!! i'm so happy... hahaha.. i so know that you lovee butterflies and so do i.. i'm contemplating whether i shld get a butterfly tattooed.. its been a year and i'm still thinking... the more i think , the more i back out on myself.. damn screwed. Anw, its ok.. you have the permission to laugh.. i'm trying to make a joke outta that fat fucker anyway.. hehe.. i just realised the previous entry made me sound so sec1, when i was even more imbecile.. *groans*
Yinghao: YES!!!!! he is an extremist of the loser.. i think i can give him the title as king of losers... just look at what he calls his clique.. The Dynamic Trio.. get anyone get him some life? Its like as loserfied as what Mooney calls her clique... OH.. he's a rugger who self proclaimed that he has passion for the sport. It now confirms the loserness of cj rugby team. I'm so ashamed man.. He shld just be the water boy la... thats a position that might be even too good for him. Shld just kick him to pluto where he can freeze his candy ass off. Urgh
Steffie: I'm sure you know him. Has the initials KJH, hangs ard the only rich fucker in cj and is also called " THE BODYGUARD", "THE 2nd DOG" and " FAT BLOB"... of course its funny.. clara or bf just told me i'm a living joke. Hahhahaha... ah siao... i'm here to join you.. had fun at camp? with him?? OH MY GOD. you'll nv believe what bf and i did yest. we saw this grp of sji guys and there was this cutie amongst them.. we were like totally eyeing him the whole time and then tried to stalk them but lost sight of them. tmd.. he's either from hockey or rugby.. can u ask alex??? HE'S SO CUTE!!!!!! simply reminds me of my bastard... hahaha

This is for everyone... that fat bastard( not MY bastard. two totally diff ppl) called me up to apologise. He sounded like a loser even when apologising. He made his bro call me and then i hung up. He then called me apologising cos of his bro's prank call. I was "uh huh-ing" all the way.. so then he was like " errr... errrr.. errr... " for one whole min. I got damn irritated i told him to get to the pt. Hahhaa... i bet he peed in his pants cos he said this" erm... i'llcalluback" ..took that opp to call crystle to find out that HE called HER to ask if i was still pissed.. *rolls eyes*
Then, he called back saying ermmmmm again.. what the fuck. Then said " actually.........( i swear he sounded as if he was gonna profess his undying love for me, and i was trying so effing hard not to laugh.) i called to.........................." me:" apologise?" him:" errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. yeaaaaaaaaahhhhhh.."
Proved my pt that he's so hum. I just realised my description of the whole thing is so bad. forgive me. And also, i said that this post is only for shout outs but seems like its more than shout outs.. having incoherent thoughts again... my apologies.

This are 2 conv that was gg on b/w bf and i yest.
Bf:"Eh... my breast very itchy.. like got mosquito bite!"
me:"I help you scratch?"
bf:" DOWAN LA!!!! later you sratch it* away"
*it-breast

This is abt fake boobies(fb) and her bikini:
me:" how come fb wear white bikini still cannot see her nipples arh?"
bf:" you nv hear of nipple sticker before is it?"
me:" siao arh.. where got ppl wear that to swim?"
bf:" den she dont swim la.. just sit and tan"
me:"but still, can see the shape of the sticker wad"
bf:"oh ya..... den maybe she doesn't have nipples"

ppl... can u laugh? I know you're gonna say its not funny but it really is!!!!! at least raise the decibel of the weakometer la.

*Laughhhhh

Crystle, this is for your understanding cos the tag board's too tiny.
Yesterday, that fuckhead of a fat pig asked me if i wanted to go to Disney on Ice with him and his bro. For God's sake. I'm 18 and NO WAY am i going to that thing with HIM and some irritating small kid. Plus, he just doesn't wanna go alone and look loserfied. But the thing is, he IS already a loser. So what diff does it make right?
So anyway, he was complaining abt how pathetic he and his doggie friend are cos they called everyone on their phone list but NO ONE bothered to go down to meet them yada yada. I wanted to shut him up so i made him go see "fake boobies" pic. U know the round, fake and huge one? Yup. her.. so anyway, i said that FB had smoker's teeth and he was like" THEY'RE NOT. HER TEETH ARE FINE". Right.. so everyone's born with ultra yellow teeth huh?! And then i commented that her boobies look way too fake and he was like " ITS BETTER THAN YOURS" Hello?? Isn't that a lil outta point? I didn't even compare my boobies to hers and there he was, yelling at me. Then we started arguing. Blah blah blah..all he could say is fuck fuck fuck, ccb, u know.. the typical fatass shit talk of his. I'm damn proud to say i didnt utter a single FUCK. i swear. x) then he said that " ya la.. i know you think you're right all the time la.. you're a knowitall bitch" which totally isn't me la... wtf... went on saying i'm a 2 faced hypocrite. I told him like he obviously doesn't know me AT ALL cos if i were the so called 2 faced hypocrite, I wld have faked a oh-i-like-u-so-much image to the niak bitch. Made use of your cute ij friend( can't name her.. u know who?? the really cute and huggable one? tog with that doggie?) as an eg Urgh. Then he said that I have no right to comment so much cos I hate everyone outta my clique. I'm just like you-know-who, "my friends hate her so i hate her too". I'm behaving like her. OH PLEASE. If i really tried to be bitchy, i'd told him straight in the face, that i'm not a lackey unlike him, who doesn't have a backbone of his own and sticks to rich bastards like a leech. Guess what he calls his companions? The Dynamic Trio. Shoot me pls. Anyone?! EWWWW

Loser's stick together i figure. Get a life. I told him to find more sarcastic comments cos those were damn ultra low life. It really isn't biting my soul. I'm not irritated by his "hurtful" remarks but more so of his stupid irritating personality. U get the gist? Maybe we shld tie him up in car tyres and hang him upside down, together with that cheena bitch cos condoms wouldn't be able to hold his weight. Haha
Yup. That's basically it. I wonder who's the hypocrite. Asking me to go to the Disney thing and when I turned down the offer, he spites me.

*Fat bastards should burn in hell, squeeze out their lard till they become more poked face than spongebob. At least he's cute. NOT YOU

My mind's a whirlwind.. I'm going insane. Must be the fever. Totally fried my common sense. I dunno what's wrong with me.
Veron, if you're reading this, I had a talk with him. your him. not mine.. yeah.. will tell u details when you're back? I dunno la.. I'm just dying. Shocked. Can't believe you did that... I'm gonna murder you. I've missed out on juicy details!!!!
I'm leaving u guys with this.

*I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset

Sorry.. but this is damn funny.. quoted from my friend.. aint gonna name her in case some ppl is reading this

*fetish for older men* says:
tie her up in condoms
*fetish for older men* says:
and hang her upside down

if u were wondering, we were bitching abt our all timr fav topic. Now, she's gonna help me slap the fats outta that cheena bitch!

The weather has been terrorizing my poor throat. It just healed a week ago btw. Now the poor thing is struggling for survival. The brain is also kinda fried by the fever. I hate being sick pls!!!
Anw, was good talking to that silly shaunie baby on the phone for the past two nites. Ulynn, stop rolling the eyes ok? hahah. Shaun, I can't believe you actually made me sing on the phone. And cld stand it. Urgh. As all my friends say, I can't sing for nuts. Girls, "there's gotta be moreeee to lifeeee" Oh well, glad you were entertained. I hope.
Ulynn just asked me smth. I'm suprised that I didn't even pause to think before answering. Girl, I guess you know how much that fucker means to me now, don't you? DP doesn't even come anywhere close. Shit!
Anyway, clara and bf, you're party will be a blast tmr! Sorry I can't make it. After A's.. I promise... Wont break it again... hahah

*Silently yelling

I'm promoting this party so much to the extent that its written on my class white board. Anyway, it won't hurt if I do it again here right?

PARTY AT CLUB ROUGE(new milieu)
Sunday, 14th march
$19 with 2 free drinks, $5 for shooters
RnB and hip hop all nite
Don't miss out on THE party of the year!!!Support my two dearest darlings, clara and tricia!!!
Dears, the partaye will be a huge huge success, so quit stressing yourselves out unnecessarily! May the cash roll in man!! I can then finally make bf get the gdn red skirt at zara!!!

*The Event

I GOT THE TIX TO THE SEVEN'S!!!!!
now the 8 of us will have a helluva good time at the national stadium.. we've got the shade, the seats, the crowd, the ambience and of course, THE GUYS!!! x) i really hope that the weather doesn't play us out.. *crosses fingers*
mind you, its the grandstand seats pls!!! omg omg omg.. i'm so excited!!! bf, ilu. thanks for the unsuccessful shopping trip. We'll proceed with some more shopping at ulufied places soon k??
mo!!!!! we're going to the game!!! btw, chow paid for yr tix and charine's going too. errr?? oh well. we've got each other, bf and daph for company! it had better rock i swear!
aiight.. time for mugging.

*It would be clear when the time comes

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day.

This weather has taken its toll on me. Such a lovely weather to snuggle in bed and not wake up till 11 tmr. Too bad. I'm living in the real world.
Anyhow, my main purpose on today's blog isn't so much on the weather, but on the behaviour of a certain friend.
Its as if his whole personality has changed completely. Everything about him has changed for the better. Everything but his crappiness and that certain trait of his, that simply intimidates me and at the same time, awes me. At least I know that he hasn't been "possessed" by some angel. Hur hur.. He's still 90% the good ol' guy that I've known for 1 year, 2 months and 10 days. Being psychoed by his mother to go to church has indeed done him a whole lot of good. I aint complaining, seriously. He's become much much nicer towards me than before. Well, he claims that he's been nice to everyone( which is true but with the exception of me). YOU; if you're reading this, take no offence ok? I hope that I didnt jinx everything by saying you're nice. Cos it inevitably happens all the time. Which so damn sucks!!
Oh well, I'm glad that times have changed and you've grown more mature and lovable *pinches cheeks* x) But there's definitely one thing that'll remain the same- you'll always be my bestest, goodest guy friend.

*Ultimate bliss

Was I wrong to blame her?
Still aint really in the mood to blog smth so I'll just give the shout outs:
Clara and Crystle: You two are absolutely fantabulous darlings of mine. I love you guys a whole lot! Really dunno what'll become of me if you ppl weren't there to gimme the support that I needed. *BEEG HUG*
Steffie: Thanks to you too, ah siao. You're the bestest ah siao in the whole wide world. Though we aren't exactly the closest of the closest in the AF, I appreciate your presence and kind words. You were the only idiot who'd be all crazy with me when we go on our town escapades. *ilu
Shaunie baby: Betcha thought pig's forgotten about you! HOW CAN I BEAR TO DO SUCH A SINFUL THING?! You're the only stupid sji bastard boy who gave me the offer of calling you at 3am if i needed to cry, despite being scared outta of yr wits when vic did the same thing some time back. You're truly a sweetie pie!!! I'm glad the friendship was rekindled after 2 years of not knowing who each other was. Hur hur.. Here's the smile I promised you. x)
Veron: Thanks a whole damn lot for all the trouble and crap shit. I dunno what else to say. *hug hug* 5 years of friendship is worth more than a few sentences of words.
Rubin and Lynette: You two are just simply way too nice. Both of you are the people that I meet up least often and yet, I can count on you guys being only a phone call away. Thank you! Lyn, can we meet up after your CT's? I know you're busy with school and track but surely you can spare a wee bit time to gossip with your cousin right? hehe... gimme a ring or smth so we can plan smth k?
To the rest of you who've made a huge difference in my life, you know who you are; you aint forgotten by Miss Bitch. All those smses, phone calls and tags really made me feel a whole lot better.
Oh yeah. Guoyi, if you're reading this, glad to see you today. Hahaha. I don't know why but it feels good to see you once again, especially so today. Remember to invite me to your HUGE house once it's done ok? Miss you, sexy!
There... said and done. I'll be seeing my dearest gfs again tmr. -cheers-

*Forgive and forget. -nods-

-Emotional turbulence-
Everyone seems to be pointing their fingers towards me. I'm sick and tired of my parents defending for her instead of their own daughter. I hate the fact that my parents and my sister(especially my sister, whom I thought understood me the most) blamed me for being over sensitive.
"You are too sensitive. She didnt mean it that way. She just wanted to share her happiness with you. You shldn take it that way"
My mom had to rub it in. She has always been like that, speakin up for others instead of backing up her own daughter. wtf is wrong with her???? she said that i'm just jealous of her. I get jealous of her whenever she does well but she doesnt have that kinda feeling towards me when I do better. Right fuck. Since when have i ever aced her? My mother speaks as if she knows me better than her. She speaks like that cos in her eyes, she's an angel. She's the angel brought into my life.
I hate to put on a pretence. You darlings know me. I'm on the brink of shouting at my mother again. Clara, trish,angela and crystle... I need you guys so fuckin badly now!!!!!!!! I need a reassuring hug that this shit will be over soon.. It never seems to be the case! I need my sexy who promised that he'll lend me his shoulder to cry on... why isn't anyone here when I fuckin need them the most?!
Clara and trish, sorry I couldn't entertain u guys over the phone yesterday. I was so effing pissed that i cried myself to sleep. The bad luck never seems to come to a stop. In fact, its like a truckload full of garbage that keeps piling higher and higher. That shit about " it'll be over soon" isnt true. When's soon? When i'm dead?

*Dead soon i hope

This is gonna be a no substance entry cos I'm not in a mood to blog. Why then, am I doing it? Cos my fingers are itchy.
Woke up to meet ulynn to go to the dentist today. Turns out I've only got 6 cavaties. Not 12. Got 4 fixed and will cont the other 2 on the 15th. Rushed back to school to collect chinese results. Like whatever man. NOT A LEAST BIT NERVOUS cos I knew the outcome. Yah. There were a few ( I'm tempted to say that word) people who were desperately calling me up, trying to find out my scores. I mean I know you did well but you don't have to be so desperate to know mine okay? Clara was equally pissed cos that QiQi was peering over to look at her grades. So what if he got an a1. He's still a cheena bastard who only reads chinese novels and listen to 933 24/7. I despise him.
To all those no lifers who did the above and yet try to sound all sincere, just take off that mask ok? We might be a little less intelligent but we're DEFINITELY smarter than you when it comes to EQ. Arsewipes!!! I can't believe one of them is actually you. Oh wait. Actually, I can; cos you've always been hoping that you'll be one edge ahead of me. You got your wish everytime. I'm glad I made you really happy.
Really shit day today. With the exception of seeing him. Yup darlings.. i saw him!!! thanks to vanessa.. she was screaming in the sms telling me to go ssc NOW. Had this really personal talk with van, him and malcolm. I realised that guys are kinda pitiful too. Its like we were pouring out our sorrows. Worked for a while but then he kinda got all defensive so we changed topic. Got bored cos there weren't any tables so we left to ps. Walked ard.. Edison and him treated us ice cream. hur hur.. x) all was going well until we were going home. THAT BITCH!!!!! she appeared! and i suspect she likes him too. goddamnit. I suddenly became invisible. He was happily talking to her and that bitch was walking so damn close. Bloody bitch! Sucha flirt, no wonder both her relationships didn't last. Urgh. I'm still feeling pissed. Sorry shaun. You should understand my situation. Pig isn't in her best mood today.
No more chinese ever. Hurray.

*Can I ever tell you?

Changed the skin again. It's pink and girly. Totally resembles a certain act dumb, act pitiful, totally nyak person that we all know ohsowell. I'm grossed out by the mentioning of her. But, this is my blog. And I like the design. Pink and butterflies. Smth that I've been searching for!!!
Dental appt tmr and I've 12 decaying teeth. NO SHIT. It's gonna cost a bomb to fix that stupid problem. I'm gonna spend 15 mins each day brushing my teeth from now on. I'm gonna brush the back few so hard that it's gonna make me feel like i'm sticking the toothbrush down my throat. Okay ppl. stop imagining my decaying teeth. STOP IT

*Gross

Ever got the kinda feeling when you heart totally sinks? Ever got the kinda experience whereby you put in so much hard work and consistency in your work but when it comes to exams, you just find that you're unable to perform? Partially because you simply cannot do, and the worst case, making tons of careless mistakes. Can I blame no one but myself? I don't think so.
3 months and counting but my luck hasn't improved a shit bit. In fact, it's probably getting a hell lot worse. Might be due to the fact the I cuss and swear excessively, bitch too much, gossip even more and this, is only one of the many retributions I'm getting. I'm sure there's a whole lot more to come.
I hate the fact that those ppl who put in so much less hardwork than me, do way better. That's just totally unfair. I can't stand the fact that the term "luck" actually does exist and for some people, it never ever seems to wear off.
As you can tell, I predicted it correctly. Triple O's are installed for me or at most a E O O, a good lecturing and nagging from the parents, and lastly, a very demoralised me.

*Shattered