Thought I could at least catch a glimse of
you. God forbade it. It's all fate.
Wasn't mighty excited waiting for time's up neither was I terribly upset when I left before you came.
Tmr's a start of a new week with econs test being the entre. What an acronym. I can't believe I'm getting cheesier by day. Must be the huge amount of tests thrown in my face. My supposedly short day that ends at 150 will now end at 3+,4... no thanks to my substitute chem teacher who desperately wants to go through the test papers. Having said that, that's another paper that'll add to my collection of
FAILED. Passed:Failed would be prob 1:4. Roughing the scores out. Yup. There about. Pathetic aye? Everyone's lamenting about how screwed they'll be for CT's. I'm no exception. Argh... I can't keep continueing living life like this, till I come face to face with impending doom. The thought of myself screwing up yet another national exam totally freaks me out I swear. This time, its either I make it or break it. My parent's aint gonna help me outta this shit hole again.
Is it a norm to lose the drive and motivation at such a crucial time? Everyday is just the comp for 165768 hours and i spend lest than 1/10000 of that time on my books.
I've already eliminated 1/3 of the problem. Now it boils down to the other 2/3; of which 1 takes sheer hardwork and determination and the other, i'll burn it like a leech on the skin. It'll fall off. (I hope)
It's actually not that difficult to keep your girly dignity. Only if it comes to someone. That'll have to be my reoccuring living nightmare. Dreading the times when our paths cross. Not the baby face pls. Yesterday, the Dairy Product came online. Moment of adrenaline rush. As quickly as it came, it disappeared. x) Stupid ulynn just had to laugh at me. You bitch!!! -> I'm supposed to keep my cool remember? This is supposed to be a top secret. So when the Dairy Product was right
thur, outside the LT, I got a shock cos I was still not over the damn halogenoalkane to ketone question. Turned around and saw him obviously i got a shock la. It was my best attempt to hide the minute excitement okay. Stop bursting out with laughter ever again. One day, he'll find out and i'm doomed. Your head'll roll too. God knows whether the stupid sji spies saw the shit. How embarrassing.
I'm off to wallow in self pity again.
*Mental disillusion
