Angela Dearie, I was writing my chinese compo titled" si nian zhong zai fen shou hou" and you became my source of inspiration. I know we didn't exactly break up, break up, but in a way, our friendship has become more distant. What I wrote might not even be coherent to the topic, but it doesn't matter.
Its been officially 11 years, 2 months and 4 days since we shared this special relationship. All the way back in primary 4, when we had our frequent bickers and whatsnot and there was also the daily hopscotch, catching and not forgetting, finding out more about LDM for me. We took everything forgranted. Literally! Screwed up the bloody PSLE and landed up in stc together again. Not by chance, but by fate. Remember the merging thing? Then, we still sat together in sec 1 and wanted to continue being buddies in sec 2. Unfortunately, we were too talkative that Mrs Ng had to put me with Veron. Hahaha. Letters in the form of post cards were the in thing then, and we could use up to 7 post cards per letter. Daily exchange was done and how we found the time to write and decorate it, and still perform well for streaming still amazes me. Even though there was zilch to write about, we just HAD to... Cheap thrill i guess...
There was a major incident in sec 2 and i thought that was the end of our friendship. I haven't formally explained to you, but Veron and I had your best interest at heart. I hope you have realised that what we did was not to spite but to "save" you. Oh well, that's the past. Let's not dig it up anymore. Unhappy things are supposed to be buried and never recovered.
After writing the compo, I realised that I had been really frivolous all these while. At least till I learnt the hard truth that we weren't going to be in the same school anymore. I took the whole friendship forgranted. Like it was supposed to be like that. Like it was a right and not a priviledge that God gave us. It never occured to me that I'd miss you so much!
We're both busy with school and I understand that it's hard to find time for studies, present friends and friends from stc. So much so that we hardly talk anymore. No more nonsensical phone calls to each other, no more gossips, no more hugs... Though there's always msn, we can't even find a topic to converse about. It's either " how's it going with him" from you, and " you and her?" from me. I don't recall that was EVERYTHING we talked about in the past?! Sure, there was always the persistent problem of my screwed up r/s and the constant heartbreaks, but we had MORE to talk abt back then. Plus, you were always there to mend my broken heart, you were the only one I could really confide in, you were there to give me reassuring hugs and you were the one who allowed me to wet your pinafo with my tears without complaining after i'm back to normal.
I've found a wonderful group of friends in cj who cleans up after me, but they're definitely not your substitute. No one would be able to clean up my shit as good as you..
I hope that after the A's, when both of us have no more excuses to give, we'll be able to meet up more often and find what seems to be missing for the last year.
Angela Phua, I truly miss you, heaps...
