Okay, I'm already feeling the bloody heat waves with all the teachers emphasising about how impt this year is and all, the incessant naggings about us having to do well in March's common tests so that it acts as an emotional booster for the A's.. I'm fuckin scared... Everyone already seems bloody geared up to fight this losing battle. Everyone but the AFs. Or so i think so.. Am i alone?
Having a changed econs teacher who can't fuckin teach isn't helping much either.. I know i have to rely on myself but really, at least make use of the time allocated during lectures and tutorials, instead of settling stuffs on CCAs.. there happen to be students who want to learn, and more so, its out A levels! I'm so not cut to do the arts. And econs is half an arts subject... goddamnit.. i should have chosen physics right from the start, knowing science is my forte. but wtf... its too late for regrets, isn't it? I've already gone thru one long year of sheer toture and i'm about to enter another learning phase. Sheesh... everyone seems to be doing well in econs. everyone but my class.. its the teacher, i tell you.. no matter how much one can say that learning relies on oneself, the teacher plays a major role too... I have a major catching up to do, with year 1 work and trying to understand wtf is going on during all the lectures.. I need a ventilator!!! I need to cut down on socialising from next week on.. I can't afford to spend time chilling out with my gfs. I don't want history to repeat itself anymore.
Feeling sleepy during lessons isn't helping either... and the fact that i've been doing so badly in school work just lowers my morale and confidence. I'm lacking sleep coz i'm faithfully doing my math homework every night till some un-godly hour and waking up early at 6 isn't doing me any good.. I got this damn feeling that i'm gonna snap
really soon... I haven't even fully geared up for the bloody exams coz fear is embracing me. I'm worrying more than i ought to. Perhaps if i could like cut down the worrying and complaining...............................
*Seriously fucked.
