Ever felt like all the emotions within you has been sucked out by some unknown forces? It's happening to me again..
I used to have something to spur me on... to anticipate the arrival of tomorrow. But somehow now, the urge has mysteriously disappeared. Even the meet up with bf and clara has no effect on me... No doubt i miss all of my gfs alot, but its like the glimmer i used to have isn't sparkling anymore. x(
Got bad vibes about tomorrow... I might just spoil the entire day for everyone, tomorrow... I'm saying sorry in advance... I'm in one of my insane mood swings once again...
I really wonder if the AFs would still be as close as we are now, 10 years down the road... Everyone would probably go their seperate ways, some even getting married. Hah. All of us have embarked on more than one escapades together... x) Nostalgia's getting the better of me now. 2003 has indeed been an exciting one for all of us. We all came to cjc not knowing one another, ij girls congregating at one corner and the scgs babes taking up a small portion of the hall during orientation. Little did we know that the 9 of us would end up being the closest of friends during the 2 years of suffering we have to endure in the hell hole aka cjc. Its the holidays now and i havent met up with the majority of you guys. I'm definitely feeling guilty and hope that our relationship with each other doesn't become distant because of the seldom meet ups. I believe that its the presence of the other 8 of us, that actually makes life in cj alot more bearable. From all the running away from monster mic,bro paul and jean cos of our short skirts, ankle socks, strings/elastics in our blouses, coloured hair, to trying to trip my HTC during assembly every morning, chilling out at the grandstand whilst having our frequent heart to heart talks( clara,me,bf,ulynn,crystle)... Those are what my memories of cjc would consist of... Ulynn, remember our lizard infested bench? Bet that made you smile eh? You know what? I don't actually want to go on to j2. I'm happy being a j1 where I don't have to worry about the A levels, where I don't get pressurized by expectations of others on me and more importantly, I still get to spend another year with the AFs... I don't exactly like the idea of a new bunch of j1s coming in on the 2nd of Jan, crowding ard at the foyer, acting like know-it-alls and being rude to us. TAKING OVER OUR TERRITORY!! I'm such a hermit... I admit to being afraid of facing the future. Everything happens for a reason but i'm still searching for clues...

*I don't wanna fall in love