Yesterday marked the end of my jc1 life... and i'm not exactly prepared to face the upcoming year.. with even more block tests and not forgetting the A levels, i really dread 2004.
I can still vividly remember the first day of school in cj. I had to take the bus to school myself but thank god i found out that they were many fellow cjcians living in my area. *winks to ulynn*. remembered cindy waiting for me at the bus stop and then walking into school together... the feeling of loneliness contained in me was haunting. My whole clique was practically dispersed. Angela and Veron had each other in sa, clar and marc were together in pj. at that point of time, i was really frustrated. i kept questioning God on why was He so unfair that everyone had someone they were close to beside them, when we have to move on to a new environment. Everyone but me.
Orientation was seriously bad. The only significant thing i remembered about orientation was that as i walked into the auditorium, i was embraced by my surroundings. The sight of many many girls wearing the same uniform as I was truly memorable. of couse, all of us just made our little ij corner in the hall and we were stuck there for the whole 3 days plus. I wasn't close to my OG group at all.. with the exception of Vincent that is. I miss that guy. We had to choose our subject combi soon after and when i was posted to a class without any stc girls, i thought i was damn. But i was wrong. 1st 3 months were the best days of my life in cj. 1t29 was really great. clara, van, I and rach stuck together like glue, bitched about the teachers, zhaoed a zillion classes together, played bridge with the guys from t26 like nobody's business, laughed everywhere we went like there was no tomorrow. And yes rach, i remembered when we came to school and realised that 3/4 of the class were absent and zhaoed to sentosa to meet them. haha.. "kuai pao" was acting tough on the raft! clara, i cldn believe u made me zhao school with you, mo and ant! was certainly an experience. you were laughing at my expression when helluva bitch Rani called me, and we all headed home with keith and daryl. ahahaha...
Its feels like just yesterday when i collected my O level results, sulking over my atrocious humanity results... that's the main reason i couldn't make it to somewhere better. damn it. then there was the chain reaction... i felt really pissed for not being able to move on from cj. i knew i was gonna be stuck at the crap-ass school for many more years to come. The fact that angela, clarissa and marc wasn't gonna be by my side anymore, made matters much worse. thank god i had veron. *hugs her tight* the whole year went passed really quickly after that. My whole life was basically bombarded with tests, problems with friends and relationships. It was a struggle having to cope with school work and still have to find the time to go out with friends. It was a great leap from sec 4, i must say. Although this year wasn't very pleasant for me, I'd like to say a big thank you to all the people that was there to provide support; namely, angela dearest, veron, ulynn, crystle, clara, tricia, jh and joleen. A month plus more to go, and i'd have to snap back to reality. Hopefully all geared up to fight the battle ahead.
dearie, it was really hard to keep in contact after we have gone our seperate ways. but the fact that u came down to cj to give me my present really touched me. Thanks for tolerating my mood swings ever since you knew me 11 yrs back. Thanks for lending me your shoulder to cry on whenever i had relationship problems. Thanks for being my special angel. I love you and no one's able to change that fact!
Veron, i didn't forget you. You're just as equally impt to me. I appreciate you sacrificing your beauty sleep just to hear me cry on the phone at 1am. Thank you for making me interested in math since sec 2 and helping me with my school work. I wouldn't be where i am today if it weren't for your help. I seriously don't give a damn to what your friends say behind my back, about us being a weird pair of best friends, about my attitude, about everything. They see who i am on the surface, but it is you, who know me deep down inside. Love you babe!!!
Sigh... i'm feeling really nostalgic after writing this entry. I hope to eradicate all the bad memories and just keep the sweet ones. But then, my life would be too boring. It's the bad patch that i went through, that made me stronger. this is like my own epilogue. hahaha. oh well...
Members of the animal farm; u ppl made a difference in my life. So glad our paths crossed!!!

*Reminiscing about the past