This is especially going out to my wonderful gfs,
Clara, Tricia, Crystle and Ulynn:
Clara: I'm really grateful for knowing you, and even more so that we're stuck in the same pile of shit. Ironically. heh... It has made talking much easier when it comes to
them... This year has been exceptionally tough for the both of us but i'm glad that we've got each other all the time... I always say that we'll be able to make it through this shit, but it seems as if its only working for you! I know i'll be able to move on eventually, but eventually seems like a long long way to go! But whatever the case is, i'm just utterly thankful for having you by my side 24/7!
Bf: I know its been fuckin hard on you, trying to cope with your own set of problems and at the same time, provide a listening ear to the rest of us... It's even worse when you don't even show that you're upset, coz then, we can't help... All we can do, is to speculate on what's happening to you. Just glad that your "trauma" is finally over... Your kindness and attentiveness towards me have not gone to waste... I know you've used up much of your time, giving me prep talks and reassuring me and I really appreciate what you've done...thank you bf! No matter how tough the road ahead is, just bear in mind that your gfs are right beside you... We're in this together... The whole A.F...
Crystle and Ulynn: Haven't forgotten about you 2!!! x) Don't try to escape coz both of you have a share in this shit i'm going through... ulynn, our motto of sji and sajc producing bastards still prevails right? Ok, you might have forgiven him, but my stand still holds... not sure if it's gonna last... maybe only when i've received enlightenment, will i then forgive and forget. Crystle dear, i know the truth hurts. No qualms about it. But i've yet to acknowledge the fact that things will never be the same again... I choose self denial coz it's a bliss.. I guess i'll pretty much be living the kind of life i'm leading now, until i finally see the light ahead.
**When i get the strength to leave you, you always tell me that you need me.
