Ok, so not everyone appreciates my presence. But it's not like we're on bad terms or what, so why is it so damn hard for that person to make the first move? I know that person is waiting for me to say hi first, but these few days, i'm beginning to come to my senses that all that i've done might not be worth my effort... Blame it on my intuition. Girls' intuition. And i swear, if there's anything that i'm proud of, of myself, its my intuition. Never proves me wrong. Go ask any of my close friends...
But like i said, i can say that i'm gonna put all of these nonsense behind my back and move on, but knowing myself, it's more than likely for me to soften up. Everytime i try to have a talk with him, he just swiftly diverts to another topic. How am i supposed to find any solution for this persisting disease?! It takes two to tango. He's old enough to know that by now, and i think he doesn't need my reminder. Whoever came up with this quote
" everything that has a beginning, has an ending", hasn't gone through what
i'm going through. So screw it!!!!
And those stuffs that Clara has been preaching about to me, about God being fair and all........ I've long doubt that it's really true. Fuck it man, seriously. Just fuck it.
It really doesn't pay to be nice or helpful anymore. Everyone just takes you forgranted. More importantly, i hate to put on a brave front. Pretending that everything's ok when obviously deep down inside, i'm corroding. Ironically, today's a significant day for the both of us. But obviously, someone is being nonchalent about it. I don't blame him. Only a crazy person with ample time like me, would actually remember this date.
I'm slow to realise of my significance.
I'm someone whom he can make use of anytime; Tap on my soft spot and i'll oblige. Call me up and i'll put aside other things to entertain you. When you have problems with her or any other girls, tell me about it and i'll provide you with solutions.
I don't remember treating Angela or Veron as well as i'm treating you. I don't even know why you're getting special treatments from me when all i get from you, is crap.
Pure crap. You've managed to mutilate me into someone that i don't know. I don't even know which is the real me; the person i've been for the last 17 years or the person when i'm with you. It all seems so real and natural.
*I've been tarnished by you. Solely you.
